Pairings: 6x2, 1xR, 3x4, hints of 5x2
Warning: R-ish, m/m, AU, Post War Preventor-ness
Disclaimer: Gundam Wing belongs to someone else and I make no profit from
A/N: Many thanks
to Marasmine for all her help and encouragement and her excellent beta
skills. She did her best, all the mistakes are my own fault.
Entropy of Memory +
Duo struggled to remain still
as he felt two familiar arms ensnare him, an embrace that he'd missed
dreadfully he realized. Heero's eyes had widened slightly on screen as
Zechs appeared in range of the vid camera.
"Goodbye,Yuy." Zechs said as he reached around Duo and flipped off the
vid screen where Heero was watching them with a smug expression.
"Now we're alone." Zechs breathed the words into his ear. "You had something
you wanted to say to me?" Duo could only shake his head in answer. How
long had Zechs been listening, had he heard the whole sorry confession?
He would have envisioned a much different setting to talk to Zechs, if
he'd admitted to himself that he'd thought about it. Someplace crowded,
people all around, and lots of escape routes. Not some place private,
with the only door locked, and Zechs' arms around him. He hadn't thought
Zechs wanted to talk to him at all, he'd seemed so angry at the river.
Duo liked the comforting feel of Zechs' embrace but he found himself checking
for exits from the room.
He needed to leave before he said something he shouldn't, before it all
went wrong and he said something stupid about wanting Zechs. Before he
was pathetic and asked Zechs to take him home the way he'd offered. Before
he let Zechs know he was afraid. Afraid to trust, afraid of Zechs getting
killed, afraid of being in love, afraidafraidafraid.
"Not very manly." Came the inner whisper with a snicker. Zechs
wanted him again, that should be enough. It had been good, it would be
good for as long as it lasted, and he could pretend that's all it was,
all he wanted. He had before. "So much for never lying." The inner
voice was really getting on his nerves.
"I have some things I'd like to say to you." Zechs pulled Duo out of the
chair, turning Duo to face him. Duo wasn't sure he wanted to hear what
Zechs had to say, he didn't need anyone to point out he'd been an idiot
about a lot of things but it was too late to go back now.
"You don't have to say anything. I was an idiot." Duo said and tried to
pull away. It would be easier to talk without Zechs' very distracting
nearness. "I behaved badly; I was hurt and I used you." Zechs allowed
Duo to pull back far enough to see the serious expression on his face.
"I don't believe that." Zechs shook his head. "I believe you wanted comfort
but I offered it. If anyone took advantage it was me, I knew how you felt
about Heero. I knew you were vulnerable, in pain." Zechs admitted it,
wondering how Duo would react to his admission as he moved closer and
kissed Duo gently then more fiercely when Duo responded and returned the
"What are you doing?" Duo managed to say, distracted by the way Zechs'
lips were moving in an erotic pattern down his neck, first behind his
ear, then nuzzling his nape, then a soft nip where his neck and shoulders
met before returning to whisper something against his hair that Duo couldn't
quite hear. He needed to leave, felt himself pulling away, needed to leave
before Zechs could... "Could what?" the internal voice asked.
"Has it been so long you don't recognize kissing?" Zechs' arms tightened
even though Duo wasn't struggling against him. "What did I hear you tell
Yuy about an apology you owed me?" Zechs moved to the other side of Duo's
neck, kissing and sucking and generally making coherent thought difficult.
"I've waited a long time to do this. Now about that apology?"
"Yeah, I owe you an apology." Duo managed to get out as Zechs maneuvered
him away from the desk and towards the sofa gracing the other side of
the room. Duo's brain was a bit fogged from Zechs' closeness and the kissing
but something about Zechs' comment about being alone was niggling in the
back of his mind.
"Zechs, I..." Duo started to say something but Zechs interrupted.
"Apology accepted, there was no 'using.'" Zechs answered with words and
then his mouth against Duo's, sliding his tongue past Duo's lips. Zechs
kissed him thoroughly then collapsed down on the sofa pulling Duo along
with him, holding him close. "It was more than 'just sex.'" Duo blinked
as he remembered the things he'd said to Zechs; he'd lied, lied to himself,
and to Zechs when he'd said them.
"At least it was more than just sex to me. I already knew I loved you."
Zechs went on. "I think you began to love me but were afraid to admit
"Zechs, you do know this is Quatre's office?" Duo remembered what was
"I locked the door." Zechs reminded him, looking a bit surprised at the
change of subject.
Duo was struggling to get up but Zechs kept a firm hold and kissed him
again. "Security cameras." Duo managed to gasp out as he pulled away from
a surprised Zechs.
"Security cameras." Zechs repeated as he sat up slowly, letting Duo move
away, and Duo nodded from a safe distance, his brain beginning to clear
a bit now that he wasn't in Zechs' arms.
"Quatre has a safe and his computer in here, and security cameras."
"I don't care who knows how I feel about you." Zechs answered, not bothering
to look around the room for the cameras. "But I would prefer more privacy."
Zechs started to reach for Duo again.
There was a discrete knock on the door, quickly followed by a sharper,
harder knock, and Trowa's voice."Une wants to talk to both of you, it
seems that Wufei has found your stalker, Zechs and would like to explain
it all to you. "
Trowa paused and said in a voice that sounded amused. "Oh, and Quatre
says to remember that 'you are the security expert, Duo.' The announcement
was followed by silence from both Zechs and Duo. They heard laughter and
Trowa's footsteps walking away down the hall.
"I guess we should call Une," Duo said, looking at Zechs who nodded his
agreement though his expression plainly said it wasn't what he really
wanted to do. Duo was happy to know that the threat to Zechs had been
taken care of. Wufei would be thorough and relentless in removing everyone
"And then we can take our discussion elsewhere, as soon as we've talked
to her." Zechs added firmly. It was Duo's turn to nod in silent agreement.
Later, much later in the comfort and privacy of Zechs' apartment which
wasn't at all what Duo had imagined, Duo lay in Zechs' arms and reveled
in the feeling of being happy and sated. It had been even better than
Duo had remembered and imagined.
Zechs' idea of a discussion had been to thoroughly kiss Duo into submission,
then tell and show him how much he loved him. In the safety of Zechs'
arms Duo found the courage to to accept that love and tell Zechs the truth.
That he'd been afraid and that he did love Zechs.
Finally telling Zechs that he loved him was difficult, more difficult
than three small words that had already been said to him should be. Duo
had never said them to anyone else; saying them made him feel lighter,
happier, better. Zechs' reaction to the words made him feel better still,
if unable to frame coherent words for a time.
"I love you." Duo knew the magic of those three words was more than physical
but they produced a very satisfying physical response from Zechs every
time he repeated them; and repeating them was easier each time. Being
with Zechs, being in love with and loved by Zechs was like finally coming
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