Pairing: 1+2+1/1x2x1; reference to past 1xR, R+1.
Disclaimer: If I owned GW, I would be happy. I am happy. But to draw the
conclusion that I own GW from those statements would be to affirm the
consequent, and would therefore be an invalid argument. See?
Warnings: Part 20 has quite a strong lime warning (2x2 masturbation),
and an angst warning. This is an AU fic.
Notes: Guess who's had to re-read her own fic... Man, I hate doing that!
All the typos... @_@ Anyway, I'm sorry this took so long! And this scene...
man, it was originally meant to take up half a part, and be tacked onto
part 19. Heh, and it became a whole part in itself... Lol. It's another
scene that's been in my head for ages, and I finally fitted it in. Woo!
Maybe Duo'll talk to me again now! ^_^' Thanks also to the ever-present
KK, for helping me without realising it! Heehee ^^
Escaping + Part 20
I showed Duo to one of the guest rooms when we got back. He said he was
going to have a shower and then sleep, even though it was already nearly
half past five. I nodded my acknowledgment and left him to it, letting
my mind wander as I went to take my own shower. What would happen, I found
myself wondering, with the end of the summit? I couldn't help but feel
quite grim about our failure to pin down the would-be criminals. I wondered
if, without a definite target such as the summit to focus on, our attempts
to solve the affair would be so much more directionless. But I had thought
about that before. I knew it would be difficult; but I had faced bigger
challenges before. Duo had reminded me of that. My thoughts turned willingly
to him again: what would it be like having to act the same as usual around
Relena, while all the time being acutely aware of Duo's presence? Worrying
about his reckless attitude to our relationship he had always made
it clear he never really cared what people thought, and that seemingly
extended even as far as Relena...
I turned off the shower and stepped out. I dried and dressed again: I
didn't feel like going to bed, but maybe I would rest for a while
The beep of my phone cut off my train of thought. A text message? Who
would be sending me a text message at 6 in the morning? Not to mention
the fact that no-one sent me text messages anyway: they were for kids
who couldn't afford to make real phone calls. Curious, I looked.
`i cant sleep'
I suddenly felt warm. Duo, only a few rooms away... He was teasing.
There was nothing I could do but retrace my steps down the hallway to
the room I'd left him in, and open the door, and go in.
He was naked. Sitting against the headboard, smiling right at me.
What could I do?
I stalked silently to the bed, kneeling on it and crawling up so I was
poised on all fours over him, so close I couldn't focus properly. We stared
at each other, his lips still parted in that sly smile, until he tilted
his head back just a little and brought his mouth to mine.
We kissed fiercely, lips moving almost as if we were trying to catch each
other out, but failing we knew each other too well, following each
I felt like I was on fire.
After hot minutes we parted, gasping, still so close we were sharing breath.
His eyes were fixed on mine, he looked... dangerous but I couldn't look
"C'mon Heero... " his tone was almost pleading and his hands
feverishly fumbled with the buttons of my shirt, "we've done enough
now... " kissing me between words. "You can cut the crap about
betraying Relena" kiss, he was almost to my waist, untucking my shirt
"'cos we both know that even if she walked through that door right
now you'd be about as bothered as I would be... " My shirt slid down
my shoulders. The words rang true, I knew he was right. I couldn't claim
to care about Relena's feelings if I didn't even care whether she knew
I was having an affair...
"What is it then, Heero? Why can't you... ?"
Yes, why did I still hang onto my shackles? Was I just being a martyr?
No... But still...
I kissed him again, desperately, but I knew I wouldn't do it, even now:
I still clung to that mockery of loyalty. I shook my head as I pulled
away, kneeling up and pulling my shirt back on, fastening a button to
keep it in place.
His eyes flashed with something, and I felt a sharp pang... "Please
Heero... " Wheedling...
I shook my head again, hating myself.
"Please... " My eyes followed inevitably as his own hand trailed
I felt a sharp, shocking spear of desire as he touched himself, his eyes
half-lidded for a moment before he looked back at me.
He was electricity, I could feel the hairs on the back of my neck stand
on end. So hot where our bodies touched.
"God, Heero, I've wanted you for so long... "
I knew it, I knew it, and I knew I'd wanted him so much too... I watched
him, mesmerised; nothing else existed for me in that moment besides him
and me. He seemed content for me to watch, and I was happy to; my gaze
lingered on his stroking hand for several moments before I looked up,
to his face... Our eyes met and when he smiled I felt a shiver run up
my spine: I was certain I was only resisting because I was frozen in place.
He was the most sensual thing I had ever seen in my life, and my breath
caught in my throat.
His hand moved faster. My eyes flicked back to watch. It was new to me,
seeing another man like this... but it was like looking in a mirror and
seeing what I felt reflected back at me. And he was beautiful, in a way
I had never even thought of before I'd met him. Somehow, I thought, and
not for the first time, Duo had shown me things inside myself that it
had never occurred to me to look for.
I touched his bare chest, just lightly, tasting his skin through my own.
I ran my finger down his side and he moaned in pleasure: it was my name,
and I was burning up in him.
I put my other hand to his other side, feeling him tremble just a little
under my touch. He felt hot, even with his skin exposed... I could sense
him getting closer. Suddenly he grabbed my hand with his free one, lacing
our fingers together: a simple gesture but I felt the link between us
just that bit more. I heard my name from his lips again; my hand reached
his hip; and then his body shuddered as he climaxed in his hand and onto
his stomach, his other hand gripping mine so hard his nails dug into my
I could practically feel what he was feeling as his breathing began to
slow again and his body calmed. We looked at each other; I was still caught
up in him. He smiled at me, and squeezed my hand, and I slowly moved to
lie down next to him on my side.
He turned his upper body, leaned in and kissed me softly on the mouth.
I shook my head briefly against the pillow, and kissed him again, a little
more fiercely, in reply.
He seemed to understand that he didn't need to apologise to me for anything,
and grinned at me, surreptitiously slipping his hand from where it was
still linked with mine and lightly stroking me with it... I closed my
eyes briefly in pleasure, and when I reopened them he was still smiling
broadly at me. "What about you?" He squeezed me just slightly
through my clothes.
I reached down and stopped his hand, wrapping it in mine again. "Don't
worry about it." I was satisfied watching him.
He looked surprised, but only kissed me lightly in response. "Well,
if you're sure." We were quiet for a few moments before he chuckled.
"I do feel like I could go to sleep now. But" he sighed "now
I need to get washed." He shifted beside me and I sat up, still holding
"Do me a favour and pass me a tissue, would you?"
I snorted and reached for the box on my side of the bed, passing him it.
There seemed to be no need to discuss what had just happened between us
it seemed pointless to dissect something that felt so... natural;
and I think my feelings were as clear to Duo as his were to me. There
was no need for either of us to jar the atmosphere between us.
But, of course... "I should go, I suppose."
Duo nodded. "I guess." He finished cleaning himself up and followed
me as I stood. "Is Miss Peacecraft back yet?"
It took me a moment to get back into that frame of mind. Being with Duo
had even more than usual distracted me, predictably enough. "I don't
Duo put his arms around my waist from the side. "You'd better go
find out." He kissed my neck. "I'll see you soon." He grinned.
"It's good to know you're just down the hall if I need you."
He gave me one last kiss to the mouth, lingering and sweet, then pulled
away. "Get some rest. That's what I'm gonna do, and then maybe I'll
come and find you." He smiled at me and I nodded, leaving the room
as he headed for the bathroom of the suite.
I was almost surprised to see everything the same as when I had last seen
it, and when I looked out of the window, I could see Relena's car in the
drive... That answered Duo's question. I half- wondered how long she'd
been back, whether it had been an actual possibility that Relena could
have walked in and caught us...
I wondered about that. I knew the thought should make me feel something,
guilt, nervousness, whatever... but far from that, I actually felt a flicker
of excitement. It was wrong of me, I knew in my head... but I couldn't
help myself. If she did find us together, it occurred to me, it might
solve a lot of problems... I felt so callous: I claimed to not want to
betray my wife, but how could I claim I didn't want to hurt her, if I
almost wanted her to find out my secret just so I didn't have to take
the initiative... I couldn't imagine how she would react I didn't
want to. But still... I realised, with a cold feeling inside, that even
if she found out... I still couldn't leave her... The thought left a bitter
taste. How could I use Duo like this? My escape from the real world, my
real life, my very real wife and job... It was unfair: how long could
I expect him to wait? But... Duo had said he wasn't giving up. I knew
he meant it. So... for now, I just had to walk a fine line; until Relena
realised that she didn't need me like she thought she did after all.
I could only hope she would.
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