Disclaimer: I don't own 'em, wish I did, just enjoy writing about 'em
for free etc
Category: AU, romance
Warnings: Yaoi, lemon
Notes: The runaways are leaving the Life they hate. But are they prepared
for the Life they find in its place? There are more kinds of Heat than
the sun; more kinds of Pleasure than Escape. And a destination that may
or may not be their final one.
Feedback: If you liked it, PLEASE let me know!
Written for zania's Ides of March Challenge - thanks, love, for the support
and the Inspiration!
Also Huge Thanks to merith, my Fiction Co-worker! for her brilliant idea
in the first place, continual encouragement and suggestions, and many
a rambling chat! x
This is based on a well-known song, as many of you may spot - but not
a songfic in itself.
10 parts in total. Hope it doesn't take too much stamina from any of us...!
Summer Sweat +
The heat was climbing higher
than ever, and inside the car it was almost intolerable. The air conditioning
wheezed and coughed, but provided no air at all; a haze of hot air blew
back from the engine periodically, stifling the driver and passenger.
They'd had to take whatever car was left at the back street sales place
- their money didn't stretch to anything else. And it was pretty obvious
that this one had been left because no other goddamn fool would ever consider
using it for anything except housing chickens. It shuddered over the track
- it spat venom out of the exhaust. It threatened every fifteen minutes
to stop and leave them wherever it chose; they could believe it was that
"There's nowhere for miles," hissed the young, dark-haired passenger,
twisting a map viciously in his hands. "Where did you say we had to take
"God knows," the driver snapped back. He was of a similar age; a trail
of sweat trickled down from under his long, chestnut fringe, sadly limp
on his forehead from the heat. "We must stop soon - I'm exhausted. This
track is like driving through lumpy treacle. My head feels like a lead
weight - I can't focus properly in this glare -"
"Shit, don't give up now, Trowa!" cried the other man. "It's almost dusk
now - the temperature's bound to go down then. And we'll find a motel
or something to stay the night."
"Heero..." sighed Trowa. He shook his head, made a frustrated noise. But
he continued to lean forward over the wheel, now burning slightly into
his hands, peering out into the hazy distance to find some landmark or
"Are we lost?"
Trowa didn't grace him with a reply. Of course they were bloody lost!
Neither of them had ever been this far out of state; never imagined this
part of the desert highway. The last town they'd passed had consisted
of nothing but a couple of small, shack-lined streets. And since then,
there'd been nothing. There should
have been the road to a city. The road to their future. But then, there
should have been a lot of things to this journey; things they'd promised
themselves; things they'd hoped for; planned for...
Things that weren't materialising any time soon, as far as he could tell.
He felt rather bitter. Bitter, exhausted, and a little scared that it
had all been a bit of a mistake. He couldn't say it aloud. Heero mustn't
know. He'd been the one to persuade Heero to come with him in the first
The next five miles were tedious; hot, sweaty, and filled with a bunch
of assorted tensions. The light in the crimson sky faded to a darker burgundy,
as the day slid towards night; a slight wind teased at the sides of the
car as it rattled on. The temperature eased, but only a drop of maybe
one or two degrees, so that there was little effect on their damp, tired
journey. Neither spoke for a long while. Trowa brushed the salty beads
of sweat out of his eyes more than once; Heero growled at the map, and
shifted uncomfortably in his seat.
"Is that something up ahead?" said Heero, suddenly, craning forward in
his seat. The car's headlights were another disappointment; a thin, pale
light jerked up and down in front of their progress, giving little help
to visibility. The car gave a particularly vicious hiccup, and his head
nearly crashed on the windscreen. "Damn it, be careful, Trow!"
"Like I have any control over this blasted machine -" hissed his companion.
But he peered ahead as well. "It may be a house, or something..."
"Stop the car!" called Heero. "Let's get our bearings. I think it's more
than a house - praps it's a motel or something."
"This crock may never start again," warned Trowa. His hands were cramping
on the wheel - he'd like nothing more than to stop. But he felt he had
to regain some control of this fiasco. He'd given Heero the responsibility
of navigation, and look where that had got them -
"Who cares?" Heero was shaking his head, and allowing a grin to split
his tired face. "I reckon we could walk from here, anyway. Look, it is
something! Looks like a motel, all right. It ain't big - but they must
be able to put us up until tomorrow. God, I just want something to eat
that isn't potato chips, and a cold drink, and a bath -"
"And sleep," sighed Trowa. "Sleep, please. For hours."
"Thinking of bed?" said Heero, a little shyly. "I mean, just say the word,
we could share a room, and you could come wash my back in that bath -"
"Just sleep!" repeated Trowa, firmly. The car shuddered to a halt. The
noise around them fell immediately to nothing but the hiss of the overheating
engine, and the whisper of sand and stones on the track. He thought he'd
probably sounded too sharp to Heero, but that's the way he felt at the
moment. Heero would have to understand that...
But he knew from the clipped silence beside him that he'd misjudged things
again. It was so rare for Heero to make any advance; to offer any sexual
banter. He was the more restrained of them in that; he still felt inhibited
about it all. And now he, Trowa, had slapped him down, just because of
this damned heat, and this damned heap of crap of a car, and this damned
ache in his head that was going to shoot ball bearings out of his forehead
before they reached the motel -
"Let's go see, then, OK?"
There was silence from his passenger, and Trowa sighed. He cranked up
the ignition, and the car hiccupped into life again. Just one more mile,
it sneered at them. And that's your bloody lot! It lurched away up the
craggy track, staggering towards the horizon, and the thin, dark shadow
that was gradually growing larger as they approached. A low, dark building,
set back a way from the road. A narrow, wooden fence all around it. A
tired, illegible sign, creaking with the slightest breath of wind. A corridor
out to the side, looking for all the world like a row of motel rooms.
The darkening evening and the fickle lights of the car made the shadows
leap and stretch alongside the structures.
"Heaven..." breathed Heero, with a thin laugh.
"Maybe..." murmured Trowa.
Trowa drove the car into the front yard, a small cloud of dust rising
around the wheels as he braked sharply. There were no other cars there.
There was no movement at all, either inside or out. The front door appeared
to be open, but there was no light from inside. They peeled themselves
out of the car, their patches of exposed skin sticking either to their
clothes or to the flaky, plastic car seating. Or both. Heero cursed, as
his tee shirt ripped at the sleeve.
"Fucking car -"
Trowa winced at the expletive. But today - well, today was getting on
everyone's nerves, wasn't it? It was the heat...that's why he felt the
coil of irritation flare in the pit of his stomach. That's why he wanted
to snap back at Heero, to watch his tongue, and just get over it!
They both leaned back against the side of the car that was nearest. They
were reluctant to go straight in - neither could have said why. Trowa
flexed his stiff fingers; cricked the bones in his tense neck. Then he
turned and leant his arms on top of the car, gazing over at Heero. He
was turned to the side, and Trowa could only see his profile. It was a
sight that fascinated him.
Heero's face. His familiar face. His scowl. Trowa's gaze ran over the
dark, hooded eyes, and down to the lush mouth, currently pursed in annoyance.
There was the shine of sweat under the young man's nose and lip; threads
of hair shadowed on his long neck. And Trowa's irritation settled, and
melted a little.
Heero... the man he dreamed about. The man that made his heart pump, and
his groin ache. He laughed inside at his lustful thoughts; there was a
time and place, surely...
"You look good, Heero, you know that?"
"Huh?" growled Heero. He didn't move his head to look back over the car,
but a blush rose high on his cheekbones. It was visible, even in the fading
light. "Like, sweat becomes me?" He was gruff, but Trowa thought that
he was secretly pleased at the attention.
The chestnut-haired man didn't answer - his eyes did it for him. They
ranged over the smooth, flushed skin of his passenger; the thick, scrappy
locks of hair that clung to his forehead like they were pasted there.
The dark patch spreading over the front of his thin vest; the sultry shine
of sweat on his muscled upper arms. Trowa remembered the day they met;
he remembered their first touch. He remembered why they were here, and
his body shivered with imprinted delight.
Heero finally looked up sideways from under damp lashes. He swept the
hair on his forehead back, almost as a challenge. His underarms were slippery
- he felt a thread of moisture run back up from his wrist to his elbow.
And he knew Trowa was watching him, greedily. He could see the way that
the man's eyes narrowed - the way his breath was shallower than before.
His slim frame pushed itself away from the car roof, and then he was walking
round the boot of the car to stand beside Heero.
Trowa was a couple of inches taller than him. When he gazed at him, it
was as if he looked down on him. It was a fond look - but sometimes Heero
felt that the expression was more than physical. Trowa had organised the
whole of this trip. Their flight.
Trowa had always been the one to call the shots.
But he was irresistible, wasn't he? "You smell hot,
"Yeah, right!" The man's soft, low laugh was rich with their shared desire.
"Perhaps I'll smell better after that bath you're offering." His eyes
were lingering on Heero's mouth; his fingers brushed lightly against his
Heero shook his head impatiently, as if he scorned the words he was struggling
to express. "I - I want things to be good, now. Y'know? They will be,
"They will be," Trowa reassured him. As he had many times, since they
left their hometown, a week ago. He leant gently against Heero, the sigh
of his tired, creased shirt whispering against hidden muscles. He dipped
his mouth down to Heero's.
But Heero turned his head away. "Not here, Trow. Don't touch me out here."
Trowa stilled. He straightened up, slowly. "Why not? It's nearly dark...
no-one to see us..." His breath hitched, and his next words were a little
tight. "Isn't that why we ran in the first place, Heero? Are you regretting
"No, of course not!" Heero snapped back. His voice was sharp, but there
was a flare of distress in his eyes. "Never! Don't ever think that! I'm
"Hush..." murmured Trowa. "We'll take it slow, OK? Just kiss me then,
just that... Don't I deserve that, for the intrepid trek across the desert
Heero smiled, then. Smiled at the pathetic joke; smiled at Trowa's plaintive
need. Smiled at the thought of the slender, smooth body that would hopefully
lie beside him tonight. This whole trip had given him too much time to
think - to brood. Of course things
were gonna be OK.
"You're all fulla wind, Barton. Like your damned desert, eh? Come here,
For a while, their heads were close together, their hands clasping their
waists tight. The kiss was slow and deep, and hot, both with the temperature
outside and the flickering physical response of their bodies. Heero relaxed
slowly against his lover, his tongue teasing inside the other man's eager
mouth. Trowa felt his body leap with anticipation as a knee pressed gently
and tantalisingly against his thigh. He leaned back against the warm metal
of the car door, savouring the mixture of sensations.
"It's gonna be all right," murmured Trowa, as he broke for air at last,
his lips numb with the pressure of Heero's. His mouth tasted dust, and
sun and another person's essence. "Gonna be our chance of freedom, Heero..."
Heero pulled away, but the mischievous grin was back on his tanned face.
Some of his moods were stormy, but they passed like tumbleweed. "And I'm
not gonna spend another night of it in that car! You ready to go in, then?
See if there's anyone there - if there's a couple of rooms..."
"Or just one," murmured Trowa. He saw Heero's sharp, sudden smile. He
thought he was forgiven for his earlier harshness. The thought of tasting
Heero's forgiveness brought an ache to his groin that battled unsuccessfully
with the damp clinging of his pants.
Trowa dragged their bag out of the trunk, and turned to find the entrance.
Heero was already walking over towards it. Then he stopped.
There was the slightest shimmer of light in the darkened doorway; moving
gently and erratically, as if on the back of a moth. And yet it was more
than a firefly. Heero stared. He felt his heart beating a little faster.
He wondered why he'd never considered their vulnerability out here - no
other people or habitation for miles; no idea of who or what may be living
here. And he and his companion, just walking in with their life's belongings,
expecting welcome, and civilisation, and 21st century services...
He held a hand out behind him, as if to warn Trowa.
He hadn't seen them, but there were long, thin wind chimes in the doorway;
he knew that, because he heard them now, tinkling as if in the wind. There
was no other sound but that. When Trowa dropped the bag on the ground
behind him, he jumped.
"What is it?"
There was a darkness in the doorway that was of a different texture -
it shifted slightly, and slowly it became the silhouette of a person.
A young man, it seemed. A young man, holding a candle in an old-fashioned
holder. Heero felt the beats of his heart through his clammy skin.
"Hey," murmured Trowa, in his ear. "He's no Bram Stoker, OK? Just a guy...
we need someone to put us up, right?"
He shifted the bag back up on to his shoulder, and walked right past the
frozen Heero. "Hi! Are you open? Do you have a room for us? Just the night..."
Heero heard Trowa's words, but as if they were enclosed behind glass,
or thick fabric. Muffled. And yet the rest of his hearing was more crystal-clear
than he'd ever known. He heard the man's footsteps on the tiles of the
step; heard the flame of the candle crackling. It had to be imagination,
of course. He smelled a thick, citrus fragrance, as if someone were preparing
fresh juice. He felt the weight of the man's eyes on him, as if he had
actually touched his skin.
And then the man stepped out into view, and the spell was broken. He was
young indeed, probably only just out of his teens. Blond, boyishly short
hair; bright blue eyes. He was shorter than they, dressed in a thin, casual
shirt, buttoned only once at its hem, and open on his hairless chest.
He wore denim shorts, low on his waist, and cut high on his thighs, with
the fringed edge of cut-offs. His legs looked good, stretching out of
them; slim, muscled thighs. Heero thought it looked as if he'd only just
thrown them on, to come to the door. Perhaps he'd been sleeping.
He moved to greet Trowa, and to take the bag. "Hi! Yes, of course we've
got your room ready. Sorry if we don't seem very alert tonight. The winds
last week brought the power cables down, and we're still trying to get
the emergency generator to settle down. It comes and goes at its own whim.
Bet you thought we looked like some kinda ghost house, eh?" His laugh
was smooth, and soft, and it sang like the wind chimes. Heero saw Trowa
smile broadly in response; he was surprised to see it. It was rare for
his lover to be instantly sociable like that, with strangers.
He wondered briefly how many other surprises there might be, now that
their circumstances had changed so drastically.
"Come on in," smiled the boy to them both, but he turned his eyes to Heero.
Heero bit back the gasp that tried to escape him; his senses were collapsing
around him, telescoping into a narrowing channel in front of his eyes,
sucking life from his limbs, drawing him down into a dark, stifling tunnel...
He was aware of Trowa beside him, but it was the boy's arm that was round
his waist, holding him upright still. Their baggage had been dropped at
his feet; he'd caught Heero as he slumped forward. "You oughtta come in
out of the heat, now. It gets people that way, sometimes. You're exhausted,
and you look hungry. I've got supper on now."
'He hasn't eaten much all day," came Trowa's worried voice. "But whatever
you're cooking tonight, it smells delicious. Is that goulash? With coriander,
Heero heard the conversation through his aching ears, blood still throbbing
through his head. What did Trowa mean? He
couldn't smell any food cooking. All he
could smell was the tang of citrus - the floral, fruity aroma that seemed
only to get stronger. A smell he'd always loved...
Trowa took the candle, and the boy hoisted Heero's arm up on to his shoulders,
supporting most of his weight. He was deceptively strong. He looked around
Heero's bent head, and smiled at Trowa. 'You enjoy your food, I can see!
And you've a nose for cooking, too - you're right about tonight's dish."
"It's my favourite," said Trowa, a little embarrassed.
"I know," the boy smiled back. His eyes flashed, bright pinpoints of reflection
in the dark. He turned, and led Heero carefully into the building.
What a strange thing to say! thought Trowa. He paused for that moment,
caught between the need to look after Heero, and the confusion about their
host. He saw the boy's pale, bare legs striding across the yard, his blond
head at the height of Heero's dusky neck; his shirt hitched up under Heero's
arm, as he guided the dark-haired man inside. He wore no vest underneath;
the thin fabric was scarcely generous enough to cover his torso to start
with. His young, smooth skin shone dully in the shaky candlelight.
How could the boy know that about him?
And why had he allowed a complete stranger to tend to his own lover? Why
wasn't Heero supported across his
He roused himself, knowing that the important issue was to find somewhere
to rest for the night. The rest was nonsense, of course. He was a pragmatic
man, everyone knew that. He picked up their neglected bag, clutched the
candlestick securely, and followed them in.
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