Rating: NC-17 and or/LEMON
Pairing: Duo/Trowa or 2x3
Summary: You see many strange things with a fever.
Disclaimer: I do not own and make no claim to any of the characters of
Gundam Wing. I am making no money off this story. Thanks.
Warnings: Well, it's a little weird....
of Yellowed Bone
It was so terribly hot, flames
licking across skin like parched earth and Trowa struggled against it,
had to struggle, had to move, always move because to be still was to be
dead, and he wasn't dead, just hot very, very...
Cool wetness licked across his face, and Trowa turned to it eagerly, a
rainstorm in the desert, yes, and after a moment it came again, carving
a slick path through the flames, the hot sand that was all over him, sand
of a thousand colors, so very pretty.
Again, wet and cool, and Trowa turned towards it, licking at it when it
slipped over his parched lips, a river, yes, cool blueness in the middle
of orange and red, and he whimpered when it deserted him again, soft words
of comfort unheeded until it returned. Trowa reached for it this time,
determined to hold the river, which was silly because you can't hold water
and he knew that, knew it, but this river felt solid, felt like something,
and Trowa wanted to open his eyes to see the river that wasn't one, before
he realized the coolness was a wet cloth, and there was a hand attached
to it, gently wiping his face.
"See, this is why I always get my flu shot." There was a certain
grim humor to the words and Trowa opened his eyes, peering blearily into
a world that wasn't made of flames after all.
"Duo," he croaked out in surprise, and the other pilot gave
him mock salute before gently swiping across Trowa's face again with the
Carefully, Trowa turned his head and found canvas bare centimeters from
his nose. A tent, he decided, closing his eyes. Standard survival kit
equipment. He dimly remembered a mission, he and Duo hiding out afterward...after
that was a bleary mixture of reality and fever dreams.
"Just hold still, would you? You're burning up. I can't believe with
all the time and money they put your training that your people didn't
even make sure you'd had all your shots," Duo scolded, wetting the
cloth again. "Hell, you can even get 'em free at the right clinic.
Because I wasn't supposed to be the one they sent. Trowa's eyes
snapped open and he had a brief flash of concern that he had said it aloud.
Duo never hesitated in his ministrations though, and Trowa relaxed, making
a mental note to update all of his shots when he was well again. Illness
left him far too vulnerable and he was just lucky that it was Duo he was
stuck with instead of OZ prison guards.
Closing his eyes, Trowa sighed quietly and drifted back into sleep. It
wasn't in his nature to put so much trust into someone else when he was
vulnerable, but in this case it didn't seem like he had much of a choice.
The flames were gone, gone gone away, melting into the shimmery heat of
the desert, yellow and old, and he watched it from across the riverbed.
It had gone dry and all the fish were rotting in the sun, stinking and
bloated and they were singing a pretty little song, over and over again.
One of the fish walked up to him on shiny metal legs and looked at him
with its clouded dead eyes before it asked him for a cigarette. Trowa
reached for his pocket because that was right, a cigarette for the dead,
but something was holding his hands, cuffs were welded to his wrist, and
the OZ soldiers were there guarding him, wearing their skulls outside
their skin and Trowa had to lift his hands, had to feel if his face was
where it was supposed to be.
"No, no, hold still..."
Familiar voice, and Trowa relaxed. It was all right he could see that
now. The soldiers had given their faces to the alligator on the other
side. So very kind of them, the alligator had been hungry, he was still
hungry, crying for more food, crying, and the alligator, and so very fucking
Quatre, he had to warn Quatre about the alligator...
"Quatre..." he moaned, thrashing against his bonds.
"Nope, still Duo." A rush of coolness came again, and he caught
Duo's hands, pressing them against his cheeks desperately.
"Shh, it's OK. I won't leave you." So gentle, and surprisingly
caring. Like Quatre would have been, but Duo Maxwell was no Quatre, he
could handle the alligator, he was safe. Safe from the alligator but Quatre
wasn't, Quatre was from the desert, he didn't know the dangers and they
were in the desert, weren't they?
"You were alone with Quatre in the desert, weren't you?" Trowa
cried, squinting at Duo in the dim light of the tent.
Duo startled, spilling the bowl of water beside him and spraying it on
both of them. He swore loudly, trying to mop it up with the rag. "You
scared the piss out of me, Trowa!" He gave up the cleaning as a bad
job and poured more water out of a canteen into the bowl. "I guess
so, if you call being followed around by fifty big hairy guys wearing
funny hats alone."
"Did you touch him?"
There was wariness on Duo's face, a faint frown and he turned away abruptly.
"I think your fever is getting worse. Maybe I should try to get you
"Did you?" Trowa demanded, gripping Duo's wrist painfully tight,
and he saw the warning in the other's violet eyes, a flash of Duo's quicksilver
temper and he lightened his grip. He understood, with the certainty of
someone who had once been young and helpless himself and now was neither.
Duo looked at Trowa's hand, still holding him though not too tightly,
"You want to know if we had sex," Duo asked frankly, and Trowa
nodded despite himself. Duo hedged a moment, obviously debating his answer.
"No," he said finally, "We played a little touchy feely
Touch. Touched. Touched Quatre, sweet Quatre and he didn't know the danger,
didn't know about it, wasn't safe, he wasn't. Trowa gripped the arm in
his hand tightly, pulling a startled Duo down. He saw the other hand go
up, standard defensive action and he caught that one too.
"Trowa, what the fuck are you..."
This was heat, soft with sharpness behind, words smothered beneath pressure,
the taste of lips that had tasted Quatre's. Protests were trying to burble
out, bubbles in the stream but Trowa wouldn't have it, no, this was his
and he wanted it.
He pushed and rolled, heat beneath him now and the words were coming,
fast and panicked but easy to ignore, simple to just reach down and touch,
and it was easy, easier than a thought. Duo was like an animal, in his
way. Fight or flee, those were his instincts, always. Fight or flee, but
if you gentled an animal, soothed it, it would do neither. It would purr
beneath your fingertips, and arch up, choking off moans.
"...oh, God, Trowa...don't...ah, hell!"
There had been different hands before, much larger, harder bruising hands
and hadn't he ever wanted this? It hadn't always been bad, not always
and he did want these slim-fingered hands, still callused but gentler.
These hands were different. Slender, cool, he liked these hands.
A sigh, a hot wind blowing across his cheeks, and then, "Buddy, you
better remember tomorrow that you're the one who started this."
So easy to relax into this, different, better heat and they were all watching,
jellied eyes of the fish and the cold damp sockets of the OZ soldiers.
Trowa wanted to laugh at them in triumph, he was hot because he wanted
to be, not the yellowed bone heat of the desert but of skin, more skin
as he parted blackness to find the pale beneath. Sweet, shuddery little
noises and he searched further, sweaty, slippery heat there and he wrapped
his hands around it, stroking.
"Shit! Shit...god, god, stop!" Gasped, flailing hands batting
at his and Trowa relented, rolling back and pulling it with him, smothering
himself in the reality of skin and the wet was back only warm this time,
slick against his belly and pushing lower, and yes, yes, this was his.
Pain, yes, a little, familiar pain, and he relaxed into it, heat inside
him now and he wrapped his arms around it, pushing upward in a jerky little
"Fuck, Trowa, don't...I'm gonna...ah, God!"
Again, heat, molten heat pouring across his stomach and it would melt
into him, burn him and the fish were weeping for him, nothing but bones
and scales, their metal legs danced without them, their songs lost forever,
eaten by the hungry alligator.
"Don't let the alligator get him," Trowa mumbled and all was
He was dead.
That was the only possible explanation there was for feeling like this.
Being dead was even worse than he'd thought. Even his eyelashes hurt,
trembling against his cheeks...but maybe dead people didn't have eyelashes?
Better open his eyes to check.
Trowa blinked slowly, wincing at the sunlight coming in from the tent
window drove tiny ice picks of pain into his eyes. Trowa pressed the knuckles
of his forefingers against his eyes, hard, until he saw red blossoming
behind his eyelids. The feel of a hand on his shoulder startled him, and
Trowa gasped aloud, scrabbling away from the touch.
"Easy, man. It's just me." Duo. Yes, he remembered, he'd been
sick and...Trowa winced inwardly, remembering a great deal more than he
was happy knowing. Warily, he opened his eyes to look silently at Duo,
who was crouched in front of him.
"Hey, sleeping beauty awakens!" Duo said cheerily, reaching
out to tousle Trowa's hair before pressing a hand against his forehead
thoughtfully. "You're fever's broken too. I figure you'll be up and
kicking pretty soon." He chattered on easily, about breakfast and
real fake orange juice that he'd mixed up in the extra canteen, so completely
normal that Trowa wondered if perhaps it had been a fever dream.
Sitting up disabused him of that hope, a particular soreness that couldn't
be dismissed as a side effect of the flu. Not directly, anyway and any
remaining doubt vanished as Duo leaned over to snag the strap of his backpack,
rifling through it for some drugs that Duo declared would help kick the
ass of whatever flu bug had dared infect him. The high priest's collar
of his shirt shifted with the movement and out peeked a very colorful
suck mark on the side of Duo's neck.
"I'm sorry," Trowa said abruptly, knowing even as he said it
how pathetically weak it was. How do you apologize for abusing someone
when you yourself had been caught in the throes of dementia?
Duo tensed, going perfectly still so briefly that Trowa might have imagined
it. Then he melted back into motion, shrugging slightly.
"No big deal."
It would have been so easy to leave it at that, to accept Duo's lack of
concern as his own. "Yes, it is. I forced you..."
"Trowa," Duo interrupted, a kind of weary patience in his voice
that was as strange coming from him as everything else in this situation.
"I am more than capable of fighting off one sick guy, even a Gundam
pilot," he continued, and he shrugged again. "If anything, I
should be apologizing to you for taking advantage." He grinned cheekily
then, and with it, the world tilted back to something Trowa recognized.
"Don't hold your breath though. I don't lie...and I'm not sorry."
Brutally honest, as always, and Trowa nodded in acceptance, the knot in
his stomach slowly unclenching. If Duo wasn't sorry then there was no
reason he should be, he decided, swallowing his pills and chasing them
town with rusty-flavored orange juice.
Duo gave him a serious look. "Tell me something, though? What the
hell was up with the alligator? You kept jabbering about how hungry it
was, and how it was going to eat the fish legs."
Trowa blinked and felt a flush that had nothing to do with fever rise
in his cheeks. "You must think I'm crazy," he murmured and Duo
"Nope, just fucked up," Duo said cheerfully. "But then
again, aren't we all? Speaking of fucked up people," he added, in
an oddly nonchalant voice, "We might not want to mention this to
Heero Yuy." Trowa looked up at those far too casual words. So it
was like that, then. He nodded, unsurprised.
"Well, if you're feeling better, then I am outta here. Heavyarms
is parked out front, keys are on the seat. Ta!" Duo waved, gathering
his backpack. Trowa watched in bemusement as he paused at the door, turning
around and walking back. With one finger he flipped up the brim of his
cap, giving Trowa a glimpse of wicked purple eyes before Duo leaned forward
to kiss him fiercely, tasting sweet and fresh, better than the orange
"To remember me by, eh?" he said, something painful to see shining
in his eyes. Trowa nodded mutely and it was gone, hidden beneath a layer
of cheer that was now as transparent as a pane of glass to Trowa. A last
wink and Duo was gone.
Trowa sighed and settled back into the blankets for a little more rest.
Maybe he'd dream of the desert and strange shimmery heat, and he had time
to make a sleepy wish that the fish had managed to escape. After all,
being dead was bad enough without getting eaten by a hungry alligator.
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