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Warning: Male/male sex, graphic, violence, language
1x2, 3x4, 5x Sally
Sacrifice + Part 9
"Is there anything else you
need?" Heero asked, leaning in close and looking anxious as he handed
Duo a steaming cup of coffee.
Duo snarled irritably, "Stop hovering and sit the hell down, Yuy!"
Heero closed up like a clam, his facial _expression settling into the
one that Duo was familiar with, the one that was scowling and fierce.
This was the Heero he knew, not the man who acted as if, given a word
of encouragement, would have slept on the floor and spent his every waking
moment taking care of him.
After being released from the hospital, Duo had returned to his apartment,
determined to take care of himself and get back to duty as soon as possible.
It had become very apparent, unfortunately, that he had over estimated
himself. Everyone had volunteered to help him. Heero had cleared the field
with a snarled, "It only takes one person to help Duo. I will be that
That had been disturbing enough, but to have the man constantly showing
up at his door to bring him prepared food, to bring his cleaned clothes,
and to clean his apartment while he could hardly stir from his bed, disturbed
Duo greatly and pricked at his pride. While he needed that help, he couldn't
complain. Now that he was weeks away from returning to duty, and able
to do things on his own, it was time to talk to Heero and get things straightened
out between them.
Heero settled on the couch beside Duo. Duo sipped at his coffee, warming
his hands on the mug, as it soothed his throat. After a few moments of
gathering his thoughts, he asked Heero,"Do you remember when I was shot
in that raid in Antigua?"
"Yes," Heero replied, looking down at his hands.
"You were in the gym," Duo continued. "I limped up to you, fresh out of
micro surgery, with my wounded arm strapped, and said, 'Heero, I've been
shot.' I was about to tell you to take over training exercises, but you
grunted, without looking at me, 'I suggest only using the leg weights
today, then.'That's the guy I know called Heero Yuy. Who's this guy sitting
next to me?"
"Why are you acting this way?" Duo demanded. "It's not like I haven't
almost died before. It's not like we haven't run dangerous missions before.
What's going on?"
"Is this... the talk?" Heero wondered quietly and his blue eyes looked
sideways at Duo nervously.
"Do you want it to be?" Duo wondered, suddenly just as nervous.
Heero nodded, his jaw bunching, and then he replied, "We've known each
other since the war without having... a relationship. We've worked together
closely and never..."
"Did you want that?" Duo asked.
"Yes," Heero replied.
"So did I," Duo admitted.
"Then..." Heero struggled. Duo didn't blame him.
"I... didn't think..." Duo chewed on his lip and then put his coffee cup
aside on a side table. "Okay, so we were so good at being professional
and tough guys, that we never let our guard down long enough to attempt
"I respected you," Heero said thoughtfully, trying to find his own words.
"I wanted to work with you and the others. I didn't want to compromise
"Maybe, " Duo suggested with sudden insight, "We were just too young and
too damned confused?"
Heero thought about that and then nodded.
"Okay." Duo narrowed eyes at Heero. "So... what's with the change? Why
are you suddenly... acting like... I'm gonna break or... you have to show
me you care?"
"I thought..." Heero ran a hand through his chocolate hair. "I want you
to know... that I'm interested."
"I got that already," Duo replied and then cocked his head at Heero. "You
don't have to change. You don't have to be all soft and wishy washy. I'm
interested, Heero, interested in you."
"Then... What should we do?" Heero seemed at a loss. "How should we proceed?"
"I'm a virgin, remember? Unmapped territory," Duo reminded him. "We have
to... wing it." He grinned, stalked across the space between them, and
then hooked a hand behind Heero's head. "Do me."
Heero frowned. "I don't think that's what we should do."
"Why not?" Duo turned and put his head in Heero's lap, looking up at him
and still grinning. "Do you want to date? We've been together for years."
"You're not completely well," Heero clarified. One of his hands tentatively
rose to touch a lock of Duo's hair as if he couldn't help himself.
"I think I can do that much, Heero, especially if you drive," Duo moved
his head a bit. "I think you're prepared enough or is that your glock
in your pants?"
Heero blushed deeply.
"Look, Heero," Duo told him, "If I'm going to fast for you, just say so
and I'll back off. It just seems to me that we both know what we want,
and how we feel, so let's do something about it."
"Is it just sex you want, then?" Heero asked seriously.
Duo snorted. "No, it's not. That's just a perk I get along with feeling
the way I do about you. I'm crazy for you, Heero. Maybe I've always known
that I wanted you. I sure as hell didn't give anyone else a chance."
Duo was suddenly silenced by Heero's lips on his, hard. Too hard. Duo
struggled and pushed Heero's face up, scowling. "Damn it, Heero! Take
it easy. That's flesh and blood, not Gundanium." He slowly pulled Heero
down again and stopped him just above his lips. Gently, he let his lips
touch Heero's. Duo frowned and asked, "What did you eat before you brought
me my coffee?"
"Kosher pickle," Heero replied and then smirked. "If we're having trouble
at this stage, I think we should train more before implementing the entire
Duo sighed. "I see your point." He adjusted his pants, "But I hope you
aren't suggesting that we do research or take lessons?"
"Only with each other," Heero chuckled.
"I'll go along with that." Duo sat up and coughed. He eyed Heero. "So,
I've heard people talk about... gay sex... but... okay so I have a few
vids, too, and... does it hurt?"
Heero looked suddenly uncertain.
Duo went wide eyed. "Does it?"
"I hurt you simply kissing you," Heero said. "Perhaps you should... initiate."
"Top?" Duo asked and his voice rose a nervous octave. He cleared his throat
again. "Uhm, I guess I can do that, but, how.... "
"We need some lubrication and condoms." Heero clasped his hands in his
Duo noted Heero's sudden tenseness. "You've never been... bottom?"
Heero pushed a pillow into his lap and took a deep breath. "Duo, if this
isn't the time for sex, then maybe I should go, so that we won't be-"
Duo was suddenly in Heero's arms and pulling him down flat on the couch.
"Screw all this! You're trying to be something you're not and I'm trying
to be something I'm not. I know what I freakin' want and I've waited long
enough!" He began unzipping his jeans.
The vid screen beeped and Une's voice asked politely, "Duo? It's Commander
Une. We've found our mole. I thought that you would like to sit in on
the operation debriefing. It's in one hour."
Duo untangled himself and threw himself at the vid. He hit the on button
and said, "I'll be there!"
"Good. I'll save a seat for you. Une out."
Duo found his shoes and shoved them onto his feet. When he grabbed his
coat and car keys, he suddenly remembered and looked back at Heero. He
found Heero already with his coat on and at his elbow. Duo grinned. "Coming?"
"Of course," Heero smiled back.
"See, that's who we are," Duo said, clapping Heero on the back, "Let's
remember that when we get back here."
"What the hell?" Duo snarled as he pointed at Rachel seated beside Wu
Fei. "Why isn't that bitch in restraints?"
Rachel glared at him and crossed her arms over her breast. "Duo, I wasn't
responsible for those emails and faxes." She tapped her forehead. "I do
have a brain, in case you hadn't noticed during all of our missions together.
Why would I ruin my career over a vindictive prank?"
Une sighed from her position at the head of the meeting table. She slid
a photo and a file across the table. Duo caught it as he sat down beside
Milliardo and Sally. Heero settled in the chair beside him, leaning sideways
to look at the photo as well. "Kirk Jasper? I've never heard of him."
"You wouldn't," Une said as she made a steeple out of her fingers and
looked over her round glasses at them. "He's a janitor. He overheard Rachel
confiding to her close friend about your 'date', Duo. He confessed that
he was secretly in love with Rachel and that he was angry on her behalf.
He decided to get revenge for her sake. After we followed the footprint
of the virus, we were able to ascertain that only one Preventer's computer
wasn't infected, Jasper's."
"I told Commander Une that it wasn't me, but she thought that it was best
if I made myself scarce until my innocence could be proven," Rachel said.
She narrowed eyes at Duo. "So, do I get an apology?"
"Later," Une said irritably. "We do have a debriefing."
Rachel looked livid. Duo sank down in his chair, recalling acutely all
the terrible things that he had said about Rachel. "You can see why I
thought..." Duo muttered, but Une tapped her pen on the table sharply
and he closed his mouth on the rest of his excuse.
"Who was the mole?" Heero asked, getting back to business.
Une slid copies of another photo towards each person. They found themselves
looking at an elderly woman.
"Carol!" Duo exclaimed. "She's one of our best agents. What the hell did
they offer her?"
"Her son's life," Une replied. "They were holding him hostage."
Milliardo sighed. "She should have come to us. We could have freed him.
Is he dead now?"
"Yes," Une replied, her _expression tight. "He was a casualty in our latest
operation. He was working for our targets. The 'kidnaping' was to gain
his mother's cooperation."
"Slick.," Duo said. "Sick, but slick."
They all gave their mission reports, then, and discussed them. It was
Duo's job to report insubordinate operatives, especially Sally Po. She
had been instrumental in helping his people abandon him against his orders.
Duo kept the information to himself, though. He'd never been one to follow
all the rules. If his people needed disciplinary measures, he would be
the one to give it. Besides, Duo thought that Sally had already learned
her lesson. It was unlikely that she would take matters into her own hands
The meeting dismissed and Duo found himself walking beside Rachel. She
stopped and faced him in the hallway outside the meeting room, the others
still inside and talking as they gathered their things to leave.
"Duo," she said as if she were trying hard to control her temper. "Tell
me one thing; When you told me that you were gay... and a virgin... was
I really the first one that you ever told?"
Duo blushed and ducked his head, hands sunk in his pockets and eyes hidden
by his bangs as he gritted out, "Yeah."
"You trusted me," she said sadly. "I betrayed your trust when I told my
friend. I'm the one that screwed up."
Duo looked up then, surprised. "I guess... I guess I said some nasty stuff..."
He held out his hand. "Let's forget about this, okay? It's done and over
Rachel hesitated and then reached out and shook his hand. Duo grinned
and she smiled. "So," she said. "About to lose the 'Virgin' in front of
your name? It looked like Heero was staking his claim in there."
Duo felt hot with embarrassment. "Trying to," he admitted.
"A kick boxing match, a couple of beers, and he'll be ripping your clothes
off," she advised.
Duo snickered. "Think so?"
"Worked for me... well, our version... almost," Rachel amended and then
laughed. "Better get back to him. He looks jealous."
Duo looked over his shoulder and saw Heero standing in the doorway to
the meeting room, giving him a look that was partly anxious and partly
challenging."See ya, Rachel," Duo said. When he reached Heero's side,
he asked, "Ready to go?"
"Yes," Heero replied and then smoothed a hand along Duo's arm almost awkwardly.
Duo caught his hand before he could withdraw it and squeezed it reassuringly.
"Let's go home," Duo said warmly and gave Heero a tug towards the elevator.
Duo held the little plastic bag nervously as Heero took their coats and
tossed them over a chair. Being at Heero's apartment, instead of his own,
made Duo feel self conscious and off balance. He didn't know where to
begin. He liked planning missions, not first time sex.
"We can wait," Heero said and Duo looked up to see Heero standing very
close, _expression serious.
Duo remembered Rachel's joke, beer and kick boxing. Maybe he wasn't that...
macho. Maybe he did need a bit of romance... or foreplay. He wasn't sure.
He did know that he didn't want to just unwrap his newest purchases and
spread his legs. That made it seem too much like he didn't care, that
he just wanted to 'get off'.
"I don't know," Duo said uncertainly.
"I do," Heero whispered. He moved in close and kissed Duo, hard mouth
pressing against his lips, calloused hands taking hold of him, and harder
body pressing up against his. All muscle, all strength, all Heero.
After the kiss, Duo let himself be held. He liked that and couldn't remember
the last time that he had just... let himself go. Heero's hand slid under
the weight of his hair at his neck and pulled Duo even closer. Duo could
feel Heero's heart hammering. The man was as nervous as he was, Duo realized.
The awkwardness fell away suddenly. The contrived 'first time' was suddenly
spontaneous and warm and not bought and paid for at the corner market.
They kissed and held each other for awhile longer and then Heero was tugging
Duo towards the bedroom. Duo met Heero's smile with his own and allowed
himself to be led.
Rain pattered against the window there, making a soothing music
as they sank onto the soft bed and kicked off their shoes. Hard kisses
turned to open mouthed and hungry ones. Hands pulled at zippers and buttons
as they undressed one another. When they were finally lying together naked,
Duo smoothed hands over Heero's hard body.
"I never..." Duo swallowed and tried again. "I mean, I dreamed,
but I figured it would always be just that, a kinky dream."
"Me too," Heero sighed against his neck and kissed him there tenderly.
That undid Duo completely. He clutched at Heero and was overwhelmed by
his need for the man, his emotions thundering through him in time to his
wildly beating heart. Heero held him until he calmed, until he believed
that it was real and that Heero wasn't about to vanish in a poof of hopes
Thunder rumbled. Heero dimmed the lights and lightning flashed and played
over the walls as they began to kiss and touch more urgently. "I love
you, Duo." It was a long breath of sound, soft and almost lost in the
rain as Heero rose above Duo and reached for the bag.
Duo tensed a little, but then he smiled and tried to relax as Heero uncapped
the lube and rolled on a condom. It didn't kill the mood, it enhanced
it. Heero was being careful. He wasn't rushing to quench his own needs.
When he was prepared, he bent and kissed Duo's stomach, running a tongue
in a rough swirl around Duo's belly button. Duo gasped, ticklish, and
arched up against the sensation.
Heero pulled Duo towards him, large hands cupping Duo's ass as he raised
him into position almost in his lap. Legs spread on either side of Heero,
Duo swallowed hard as he felt Heero's slick fingers at his entrance.
It wasn't easy. The sensation went from pleasure, to uncomfortable prickles
of pain, to pleasure again. When the fingers withdrew at last, and Heero
put the blunt end of his erection against Duo, they paused like that.
Fingers had felt good, but this was wider and different. It was already
pushing uncomfortably even against the stretched flesh there.
"It's okay," Duo told him with only a little shake to his voice.
Heero's look of pure warmth, love, and anticipation told Duo that this
was more than sex, that this was the first step into a deeper relationship.
Lightning highlighted the curve of Heero's back as he bent Duo almost
double and pushed forward.
Duo groaned as that head defeated all resistance and worked it's way inward.
It wasn't as painful or as strange as he imagined. There wasn't a rise
of instinctive outrage that another man was so obviously dominating him.
On the contrary, Duo wanted more. He flexed and forced Heero in deeper,
clenching hands into Heero's ass to drive him down. Heero rolled his hips
under that grip and shoved.
"Want you," Duo hissed impatiently as Heero stopped and seemed to want
to rest. "Do it. Come on!"
Heero nuzzled the skin that he could reach and replied, "I don't want
to come right away, Duo. Give me a moment."
Duo chuckled and it came out as a nervous sound. His hands knotted in
Heero's wild hair and he waited until Heero regained control. Heero rolled
his hips again, then, pulling up and then shoving inward again deeply.
"Yeah!" Duo groaned. "This is so damned good!"
Heero began to move faster, pumping his hips in earnest. That made Duo
come first in a hot spurt across both their bellies. He let out a yell
at the power of the orgasm, blinded and panting as sensation overwhelmed
every nerve in his body. He was only vaguely aware of Heero coming as
well with a deep, drawn out moan that almost sounded like a beast in pain.
Wetness oozed down the crack of Duo's ass, but he was warm and content
to stay under Heero as they both recovered. Finally, Heero pulled out
and reached for the kleenex on the bedside table. He cleaned them both,
tossing the used kleenex carelessly aside with one of them containing
his broken condom.
"Damned thing didn't work," Heero muttered.
Duo felt a split second of worry, but Heero looked embarrassed as he added,
"Not that it was really necessary."
Duo frowned as he pulled Heero down to him and covered them both with
a warm blanket. "Why not?"
Heero wrapped an arm around Duo and pulled him close as he whispered in
his ear, "I'm a virgin too."
Duo started and then laughed. "At our age, nobody will ever believe us."
Heero chuckled, but then grew serious. "I tried... with other people,
but it never seemed right. I wasn't interested in them at all. I wanted
to tell you how I felt, but there were always missions and we were so
busy finding our place; getting our positions with Preventers. I thought
you might be gay, but I was afraid to hope."
"Same here," Duo sighed, but then grinned. "So we popped each other's
cherries. Can't ask for better than that." He eyed Heero. "I think I'm
supposed to ask, 'Was it good for you?', now."
Heero gave him an intense look and replied, "It was better than anything
I've ever felt before."
Duo kissed him and said, "Me too. I don't think it was just the sex, either.
It was being with you that made it really good."
Heero ran a hand along Duo's back and cupped one ass cheek. Done talking
romance, and knowing that what they had between them was love, it was
back to basic need and Heero's hard erection let Duo know that he was
very needy. "Can we... again?" Heero wondered.
"Yeah," Duo purred in a sexy voice. "Go for it."
Heero was up and sliding Duo towards him eagerly then. Duo moaned as Heero
entered him again and, as the man began thrusting, he smoothed hands along
Heero's strong back. "Mine," he growled and felt an intense satisfaction
and a completeness to his life that had always been lacking.
"Mine," Heero echoed and that felt just as good.
The rain began to pound the window pane in earnest and it felt very primordial.
As Heero came a second time, the heretic part of Duo had a thought, an
image of them both offering up their virginity as sacrifice to some god
for a new and better life together. It made him clutch at Heero possessively.
"All right?" Heero panted.
"Now I am," Duo replied as he grinned fiercely and pulled Heero down for
a passionate kiss.
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