Genre: Drama (Duh...)
Warnings: Uh, angst... slight AU... little bit of sugar.
Disclaimer: I own nothing. *thppt*
I can't believe he was here
and fuckin' sayin' all this to me. "I said goodbye" psheah right! God
this hurt tearing all of this out and launching it at him, but it also
felt very good.
"Why did you come here Heero. Tell me the truth." He fuckin' owes it to
me. I glare at him. It must be worthy of him because he almost flinched.
"I missed you." He finally said.
"Well sheeeeeiiiiit Heero. You're becoming human." I can't believe I just
said that to him. I've wanted him for how long and I just told him -that-.
"You missed me. How long did it take you to figure that one?"
His face is a mask now. He must be confused at the way I'm acting but
right now I'm hurting too much to care to reach out and console him. In
fact, I don't really want to. His coming here has ripped me wide open.
I know I'll never be able to kill myself now unless he walks out and gets
on that boat and takes off. My feelings about him won't stay silent tonight
and it's only a matter of time.
He hasn't answered yet. "Heero, I fuckin' waited a month, a month! A month
for anyone to come back or call or show that they cared anything about
me. Every day a piece of me died. You people must think that friends grow
on trees for me. Well let me clue you in on something. They don't. And
after the war I didn't feel the overwhelming desire to pretend that I
wasn't involved in any way with the war and play happy innocent nice to
all of those people that didn't know the real me and would be freaked
out if they did." I paused to take a breath. This really hurt to say.
It felt like I had a raw wound shooting through my body and I was leakin'
fast out of it.
"I didn't know what I missed until after a month."
Duo gaped at him. "You didn't... And what do you mean by that?"
"I missed you, Duo. You weren't there to talk to me, to interupt me, you
weren't there to remind me that I was trying to live instead of just being
Duo closed his eyes, the lonliness hitting him full force again. "And
you took 5 months tracking me down? You could have called."
"I didn't have a phone number. I didn't have a forwarding address. I had
5 doctors that told me they gave you a hand with a decontamination effort
in California. Do you know how many places there are that have biological
warfare chemicals that leaked? Do you know how many of those were OZ bases?"
Heero paused and Duo felt a hand force his chin up. He opened his eyes.
"It took me that long to find you because I don't want to be alone."
Tears welled up in his eyes again. He didn't want to start crying in front
of Heero. Not now. "Heero... I don't know if I can accept that... I don't
want to be alone either but I don't know if you'd survive."
Heero raised an eyebrow as he studied him.
"I'm cursed Heero..." he swallowed, holding Heero's eyes. "Everyone I
Heero blinked. His hand moved to caress Duo's cheek, leaving the chin
in the process. "If I can survive blowing up my gundam, surely I can survive
your love. I know I can if you accept mine in return."
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