8-19-01
Author: Mair
Pairings: 2+1+2
Genre: Drama (Duh...)
Warnings: Uh, angst... slight AU... little bit of sugar.
Disclaimer: I own nothing. *thppt*

#8

Duo dropped his eyes and swallowed hard. Heero was offering to make the loneliness go away. Heero offered to make something go away that had been a part of him for so long that he didn't know what he would do without it. The forming tears pricked the corners of his eyes and he curled himself into a fetal position, head to his knees as he sat on the sand.

A tear left the corner of his eye quickly followed by one from the other eye. His nose started to fill as he drew in a shuddering breath.

Heero watched Duo retreat in on himself. He didn't know what to do. "Duo?"

Duo rocked back and forth slightly, ignoring him.

Heero heard a sniff and the ragged breathing. Then it hit him. Duo was crying. He never cried. "Duo? Daijoubu?"

Duo let out an audible sob and lifted his now tear stained face. "How can you ask that?"

"I care about you, Duo. And because I care and because I don't want to lose you, I ask."

Duo sniffed and wiped furiously at the tears on his face. "I'm not ok. I haven't been OK. I'm not going to be OK."

"Why not?"

"Because!"

"Because why? Duo, I already told you that I love you." Heero prompted.

"And that's why!" Duo snapped back, the tears starting again. "Heero, I can't be happy for you. I can't tell you that everything is going to be fine. I've been so lonely and I don't know how to make it stop..."

Heero blinked. Something clicked inside him and he moved closer to Duo and wrapped his arms around him. Duo fought him. Heero struggled to corral his arms. He pinned Duo's hands to his sides and held them there until Duo stilled in his arms. When he was sure Duo wasn't going to try and escape he released his hands and just held him.

Duo stiffened in Heero's arms, then sagged sobbing.

"I'm sorry Duo..." Heero whispered. "I never understood. Now I do. Let me stay. Let me love you."

Duo continued to sob into Heero's shirt. Slowly he wound his arms around Heero, accepting what was offered. He felt Heero kiss the top of his head, never once easing the arms around him. The kiss on his head broke something inside and he cried even harder.

Heero shifted slightly on the sand and changed his sitting position, allowing Duo to fold onto him. He didn't understand why Duo cried even harder now but he knew it was good.

Duo slowly mastered himself as the moon began to rise over the ocean. The dark sky absorbed the color from everything. Heero's arms relaxed around him as he sat up.

"Better?"

Duo nodded.

"Good." Heero smiled. It wasn't much of a smile, but it was a smile nonetheless.

Duo blinked in surprise. "You're smiling."

"Hai. You gave me your smile for safe keeping. I hope you don't mind if I give it back." Heero answered.

"How -- "

Heero silenced him with a kiss. Duo's eyes widened in surprise and then realized that it was the loneliness that broke inside. Heero broke the sweet kiss with a twitching half smile-smirk on his lips.

Duo smiled.

~owari

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