Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing.
PLEASE READ: Just to keep
the time line from getting confusing, let me point out that the beach conversation
was Thursday, most of this chapter happens on Sunday and then we move to
the Friday that Duo talks about at the end of his chapter. Okay? Hope that
makes sense. I wanted to show you guys that Duo is trying like he said he
So, now, back to our Heero...
+ Part 14
I wasn't really happy with
Duo's answer that we had found out 'enough' about him. We hadn't really
found out anything beyond the fact that at the age of two he had been
in a fire and someone had died to save him. On Sunday morning, I asked
again if we should keep looking.
"No. I know enough, Heero. I'm content. It's your turn now."
"But we could still check the other colonies records, and then Earth's..."
"That would take forever." He snuggled down into my arms, tugging the
covers tighter around us. "I'm happy with what we found, Heero. It's time
to start looking for you." He glanced up into my eyes. "Unless you don't
want to know..."
"I do." I looked at the clock. 9am. Since Duo and I had started using
the bed for more than sleeping I had a harder time getting out of it in
the mornings. It was too easy to stay curled up next to Duo's warmth.
Duo laughed as if he could read my thoughts.
"Feeling too lazy to get out of bed?"
"Too comfortable," I replied.
"Mmm," he agreed, closing his eyes. "I could stay here with you all day."
"Don't tempt me," I told him. "You promised Wufei that you'd help him
shop for Sally's birthday present."
"I did no such thing."
"Yes you did," I laughed at him. "You told Fei you'd meet him at noon,
and you know it takes an hour to get to that mall. You'd better get up."
"I must've been crazy," he groaned as he dragged himself out of bed. "Going
shopping with Fei? At a mall? He'll kill someone before the day is over."
"As long as it's not you," I got up and let Val out. She'd been patiently
waiting at the foot of our bed for her lazy humans to get up and take
care of her.
"You're coming with us, right?" Duo scrounged around for his clothes.
"I don't recall ever saying that I would." I replied loftily as I got
Val's breakfast ready for her. "I was thinking..."
Duo pounced on me, pinning me back against the wall. "Oh no? You'd abandon
me to a fate worse than death? I love you! Don't you care that you are
sending me into the dragon's den without even a kind word..."
"The stage missed out when you didn't go into acting," I sighed, unable
to resist my lover. "All right, I'll go. But you owe me for this Maxwell."
"I know it," Duo's voice shifted to a throaty purr and he rubbed up against
me like a big cat. "I'll be very grateful."
"If you don't stop that," I told him conversationally, "we're going to
be late meeting Wufei. Unless you're planning to cut your shower short."
"Spoilsport," Duo made a face and let me go. "It's a good thing I love
you or I'd be very cross right now." He kissed me teasingly and headed
for the bathroom.
I let Val in and she headed for her breakfast with enthusiasm. I sat down
on the couch. The doubts that had plagued me since Thursday hadn't left.
Did Duo truly love me? He sure said it a lot. Was he making up for lost
time or trying to convince himself? I looked down at my chest, seeing
the faint scars left behind. Was it my imagination, or had his hands lingered
on those places when he said that he loved me?
I could curse myself for doubting him, but I knew my Duo. He wouldn't
have called himself Shinigami if on some level he didn't believe it. Did
he love me- or was it only because he thought I was strong enough to survive
Duo made it out of the shower in record time- the thought of an impatient
Wufei waiting for us at the mall wasn't pleasant. I took my shower and
got dressed. Duo came up behind me as I was pulling on my shoes.
"Forget something?" He teased as he pulled my hair back into a ponytail,
twisting the rubber band with practiced ease.
"Thanks," I turned my head and accepted his kiss.
"Can't wait til it gets long enough to braid." I rolled my eyes at him.
"I'm not braiding it. I'd look stupid."
"No you wouldn't," he countered as he followed me out of the house. "I
think you'd look great." He hopped into the car. "Of course, I think you
always look great."
I had to smile. "I'm still not braiding it."
"You will," he informed me airily as I started the car. "You will fall
prey to my faultless logic, great sense of fashion and outright pleading
and you'll let me braid it."
"Okay yes, you do have a great fashion sense and yes, you know I can't
resist your pleading- but faultless logic? Duo, I'd look stupid." I countered
as we headed towards the freeway. "Not everyone can carry off a braid
after all," I commented, trying to switch tactics.
"Flattery will get you no where." He laughed.
We managed to beat Wufei to the mall. I was grinning by the time we got
there. Duo had, as always, kept me highly entertained in the car despite
"He's not here yet," Duo surveyed the entrance.
"We're early," I looked at my watch. "He'll be here in the next 5 minutes."
Fei was punctual to a fault. I leaned against the wall near the door.
"What do you want to do until he gets here?"
The expression of sheer mischief on Duo's face alarmed me.
"I have the greatest idea," he purred and stalked towards me. "We had
to stop so suddenly this morning..."
"Am I going to like this idea? Is Fei going to hurt us over it?" I questioned
as he leaned into me, pressing me up against the wall. Hadn't I been in
this position once today?
"You'll like it. And Fei will learn to be on time." Duo kissed me then,
not a casual 'public' kiss but deep and searching.
I should've protested. We were in a public place and Fei was on his way,
I can't resist when he kisses me like that.
It wasn't until we heard a: "Maxwell! Yuy!" that Duo finally let me go.
Wufei was standing beside us, an interesting expression on his face, cheeks
slightly red. After a moment I realized that he was trying not to smile.
"If you two don't mind, you did promise to help me today- remember?"
"You were late," Duo grinned. "I had to do something to keep out of trouble
until you got here." Wufei rolled his eyes and turned to me.
"Many apologies Heero. Thank you for keeping him out of trouble until
I got here." I had to laugh. Fei's tone was apologetic but the hint of
a smirk on his face was too much to resist.
"Ah, he's never too much trouble..."
"I'm not six you know," Duo rolled his eyes, but he was amused too. "Did
Sally give you a list?" He asked, changing the subject. He pushed away
from me, but kept a firm grip on my arm as we headed into the mall.
"A list? Of course not. I'm supposed to know her well enough to know what
she'd like," Fei groaned.
"Sally said that?" I asked.
"You poor, poor man."
"Don't sympathize with him Heero," Duo laughed. "It just means she's been
Duo managed, by careful questioning, to figure out what hints Sally was
dropping. It was an easy task after that to find her gifts. We only had
to make sure that Fei didn't insult any of the ladies who helped us out
in the women's departments. At least some of his time with Sally had mellowed
him, but he still growled over 'onnas that wasted his time'. Thank goodness
for Duo's charm. He soothed several feathers that Fei had managed to ruffle.
We had lunch with Fei afterwards and he promised to let Duo know how Sally
liked her gifts. Duo entertained me on the way home with the story of
Fei and Sally's courtship, which I doubt was as amusing as he made it
Though I could see Sally finally cornering Fei in the Preventers' break
room with the demand that he either ask her out or quit frightening everyone
else off. The expression on his face must've been entertaining to see.
Once we got home, I sat down on the bed to pull my shoes off.
"Tired?" Duo plopped down next to me and kicked off his sneakers.
"No- why?" That mischievous look was back on his face.
"Because," he launched himself at me, knocking me flat onto the bed. "Every
time I got you in a good position today we had to stop."
"Ah," was all I managed to get out.
A week passed. Duo was affectionate, loving, everything I had ever wanted
him to be. He told me that he loved me and most of the time it was easy
to believe him. Sometimes though I couldn't help doubting him. I'd see
the way his eyes lingered on my scars, or he'd tease me about being 'nigh
invulnerable' and I'd start to wonder again.
Friday night we had opted to stay home instead of going out with my coworkers.
Since we had started the physical side of our relationship only a week
ago, it was far more tempting to stay at home in bed then go out dancing.
Duo was curled up on my chest, his hand stroking over the scars the bullets
had left. Kelley's gun- and his. I wished I knew what he was thinking
about. He looked up to meet my eyes.
"I love you," he said softly.
"I love you too," I replied, even as I doubted. His expression changed
then, and he sat up straight, his eyes burning with something I couldn't
classify. Anger? What had I done?
"You don't believe me," his eyes met mine and his voice was flat. "You
know I don't lie, Heero! Why don't you believe me?" He continued before
I could even think to speak. "I made damn sure to know how I felt about
you before I said anything!"
"Duo-" I sat up as well, but he evaded my hand when I reached for him.
"I know I made you wait. I know that you have a hard time seeing your
own worth- but Heero, it's hurting me to see the doubt when you look at
me." His voice had dropped. "What do I have to do?"
I had to be honest with him. I could hear the pain in his voice; see it
in his expression.
"Why do you love me?" I asked him and he blinked. "Is it because I'm-"
I had to take a breath, my control was failing me. "Because I'm hard to
kill? I know how many people you've loved that have died Duo. Do you love
me because you think I'll survive you?"
I know I was a bit incoherent, but Duo understood. I recognized the expression
on his face and inside, my heart felt like it was cracking.
I hadn't wanted to be right.
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