By Nazarri Blue
Mentions of Trowa/Quatre Wufei/Zechs
Warnings: hints of lime and sappy I first want to apologize for the two-part
ending. But I have two very different things in mind and I will write
it better if I break it up.
Love is like a storm. It
is fresh and cleansing. It is natural and essential. It is powerful and
fulfilling and nothing can get in its way.
- Lovers Oracle
Biting Silence + Epilogue
He takes my hand.
Such a simple gesture, but for me, it means so much.
Under the twinkling stars of the night sky and strings of lantern lights,
we dance slowly in each other's arms. His loving touch and the way that
his eyes never leave mine tell me all that I will ever need to know.
Even here at the RenFest, surrounded by so many people, he is not afraid
to show the world how he feels about me. I was nervous when we first got
here. I know how hateful the world can be when true love does not fit
into the small minded childish view of what love "should" be.
But as Duo says, "Fuck them! We are better; we soar in love's grace
while they have chained themselves to petty thinking. Let them wallow
in the muck while we fly on the wings of loving angels."
He has such a way with words.
"Gods, but you are the most precious thing in the world to me."
The memory of Duo's words warms my very soul.
His very eyes say it every time he looks at me.
Duo loves me.
He truly loves me, for what I am, good or bad. And that in itself makes
our love more than what most people share. Love is not changing a person
or making them out to be what you want, but accepting them without reserve.
Only Duo has ever treated me that way.
And my love for Duo flows just as deep.
Not that our life is perfect. No, my Duo and I disagree at times, but
we work from a foundation of inner strength and eternal faith in each
other. We know that no matter what, we will stand side by side, hand in
hand, without hesitation. We are not perfect, but our love and shared
soul are, completely untainted by our flawed mortal beings.
A million life times together or apart change nothing to this fact.
The night is so full and clear and my heart sings with the soft wind.
Everything about Duo makes my heart feel this way; with him, I am free
to be myself.
So why do so many people hate the fact that we are together? We always
have been and always will be. We are the best for each other; anyone who
loves us knows this.
But I guess that is the bottom line, those who love us respect what we
share and what we are to each other. We have Trowa and Quatre, Wufei and
Zechs; all of us stand together in a circle of unbroken strength. In a
world that hates homosexuals, we are there for each other.
As it should be.
What a shame it would be if we turned against each other. But we will
not. Our love is too important to treat like a game.
And those others simply do not matter.
So we move around the dance floor with the other couples, lovers among
lovers. In this place where our love can be expressed without fear, there
are many couples like us. It is so good to see.
We are dressed in our RenFest finery. Duo is wearing his outrageous bard
costume of dark gray and purple, bells on his codpiece and all. I am in
an Elven archer outfit that Duo wanted me to have; it is leather armor
of deep brown and green with cut leather leaf shapes.
Of course, I am wearing a codpiece as well. Duo is so naughty! He kept
going out and finding a new and bigger piece, claiming loudly that there
was nothing large enough to contain "me". And each time that
he returned, he would nuzzle and kiss my cock through the thin material,
which did make it difficult to find a good fit.
Duo likes the way that I look, but there is no way that I look as beautiful
as he does in his outfit. By the Gods, the man is gorgeous!
We continue to dance, gazing into each other's eyes; the world simply
We are lovers, but we have not . um .
I blush even thinking about it.
Duo smirks at me, obviously knowing where my thinking has drifted. He
has been so wonderful with me; he knows that we need to move slowly into
We lean into each other at the same time, sharing a soft kiss as we continue
So far, we have only shared loving touches and kisses.
And Duo seems to be obsessed with my ass. Not that this is a bad thing!
He loves to have me lay across his lap as he caresses and covers my ass
with feather kisses. I swear that he can do this for hours.
But this night we move beyond that, to explore new ways to express our
Duo brushes my ear with his lips, "Are you ready?"
I am very ready.
My answer is to pull him from the dance floor.
We head toward our gypsy wagon; Duo actually acquired one for us to stay
in. Half way across the festival grounds, Duo pulls me to stop. I watch
his eyes slowly move toward the heavens. "Heero, there is something
we should do first, okay?" His voice sounds quiet.
I nod. Whatever it is, it obviously means something important to Duo.
Hand in hand, we walk to the gardens. He looks thoughtful, and I wonder
what is going through his head.
We approach the ivy chapel hidden amongst the twisted and hanging vines.
It is small for a place of worship, but large for a garden structure.
There are a few support pieces of fallen wood. But the walls and overhead
roof are covered with nothing but ivy, a holy place of nature.
There are four rows of benches and a wooden platform at the far end. An
altar stands at the far end, covered with various pieces from all faiths
and candles. Even though there are a few lit petition candles, the chapel
This place has such a strong feel of the sacred; I am in silent awe.
We walk together toward the front. Duo releases my hand and I watch him
move to the altar. He takes a glass votive from a basket and lights one,
he places it on the wooden surface with the others.
He comes back to my side and lowers himself to his knees. I watch him
release his hair from his braid and lower his head in silent prayer.
I am stunned by the ethereal looking love of mine. The few candles glow
and the moonlight from above pours through the ivy, he looks like an angel.
He is so beautiful and pure.
His visage renders me weak, I slowly lower myself, on my knees next to
him, our shoulders touching. My fingers reach out, I take a few strands
of his silken tresses between my fingers, bringing them to my lips to
kiss in reverence.
He is perfect, my beloved Duo.
I watch him in our silence as he prays; for what, I am not certain.
After a few minutes, he raises his head once again, seemingly gazing at
the moon through the ivy. He speaks softly. "I want you to know how
much I love you."
"I love you too." My words meant only for his ears. In this
place, it seemed wrong to speak in a full voice.
He turns his face to mine, "I pledge my love to you, forever."
I take his hand and raise it to my waiting lips, whispering a kiss across
his fingers. "Forever, Duo, I pledge my love. You are in my heart
and soul, where no one else will ever be. "
He quivers slightly as he opens his other hand; we both look down. He
holds two simple rings of gold.
Without a word, I take one and place it carefully on his finger, as his
hand that still rests in mine.
He leans forward and kisses my ear as he takes my hand into his. My face
is draped in his hair when I feel him slip the other ring onto my finger.
Duo kisses my ear, then my cheek; finally his lips come around to meet
mine. He is so gentle: I part my lips to deepen our joining. Our tongues
softly caress each other.
We meld into one another, our mouths and bodies pressed together. There
is no denying the rising heat that we feel. A moan rumbles in my throat
as I feel Duo's hands slide over my ass. He pulls my hips forward, grinding
his codpiece against mine . my toes curl.
Oh Gods! What he does to me!
The need for air becomes urgent. Reluctantly we end our kiss. It is time
to go, before we consummate our love right here in this sacred place.
Hand in hand, we run out of the chapel and to our awaiting gypsy wagon.
Anticipation runs high as I wonder what new delights Duo has in store
Like a gift for the immortal
God of Sensuality, Duo slowly removes each piece of my clothing. The fact
that he is already nude only reaffirms his status as a deity. His touch
is like the fire of life, coursing through me at such depths that I am
rendered completely silent. There is nothing in the universe except for
the perfection of male looking down at me.
His eyes draw me into their depths, his soul wraps lovingly around mine.
I am completely immersed in his very being.
I can hear him purr softly as my skin is uncovered, for his eyes only.
And as I lay upon this bed, my hands grip the velvet covering as my mind
struggles to will my breath in and out of my body.
In and out . there sparks a craving deep within myself. Undeniable. The
eternal need of my soul to be at one with its mate; I long to fill and
be filled by him.
He leans forward, letting his loose hair drape over me. With my top long
gone, disappearing quickly between fevered kisses, his hair teases my
bare skin. He whispers sweet words into my ear. "I have waited for
one year to see you in this outfit, and now all I want is to see you out
I feel his lips turn to a smirk against my cheek as his hand slides down
and casually slips into my leather leggings, behind the codpiece. He wraps
those slim fingers around my passion heavy cock; his grip is firm and
My entire body shudders as his hand strokes me; I need Duo's loving touch.
I envision his beauty beneath me as I make love to him, the primal screams
surging forth from us. Lifetime after lifetime, it is so. Flashes of our
other selves, immersed in blissful union, burst through my mind.
It is terrifying and comforting at the same time.
I feel him move lower, kissing my stomach, easing the codpiece out of
his way. The cool silken strands of his hair trailing down my body, following
the path of his kisses. Duo's hand effortlessly works the fasteners on
the heavy leather leggings, and then he slides the garment off of me.
As he looks down on me, I see nothing but sheer love in his eyes; he makes
me feel so perfect. With him, I am so loved and adored, a treasure of
the body, mind, and soul.
My eyes focus on his lips, full and red, parted with intense desire. His
tongue slowly traces his lips. There are so many delights that I wish
to experience involving that wonderful tongue.
I reach out toward him, silently expressing my body's need of his. A light
blush tints his cheeks as Duo moves into my arms.
We feel so much when we come together like this. Our bodies intertwine
as one, legs and arms curling around each other. All of our barriers are
shed, no clothes or masks, bare to the core.
We share such a joy of innocence, not of body, but emotions. This is perfect
and feels so pure of heart. When I think of the horrors of our parentless
childhoods, cruel training, and bitter war, we deserve these moments of
My Duo and I will never be normal as society sees it, but we find our
bliss in the best way possible, with each other.
I gently pull Duo closer, pressing my lips to his own. Such a simple act,
but truly the most powerful and profound of intimacies. I would never
share this with any other than Duo; it would feel... dirty.
Our kiss grows deeper as does our need. I know this feeling, as familiar
as breathing, the tingling warmth that spreads through my body. My toes
curl as my body begins to quiver.
His fingers lightly graze over my chest as I realize that I am flat against
the mattress. My Duo is smiling down on me, showing me in every way just
how much I mean to him. There is nothing fake or false between us, just
an open healthy honesty and respect.
Pushing my hair from my face as he nibbles playfully at my lips. "I
want you Heero."
We have moved slowly through our intimacies, savoring each step instead
of jumping feet first into the deep end. But now . this feels so right.
I nod my understanding; I want him too. My mind is not really certain
what he has planned, but I am willing to do anything.
Duo slides down my body once again, placing loving kisses on my cock.
My hands are shaking as they weave into his hair. I want more, of what,
I am not sure. My cock aches, the throbbing like a pulse.
He takes my hands from his hair and guides them to my straining hardness.
I practically scream; it is his touch that I want.
Then I feel his head moving even lower, pushing my thighs wide. My hand
takes a natural course, stroking myself as I feel his lips gently caressing
the soft skin of my inner thighs. Duo's moans as he pushes my legs up
and as far apart as they will go, exposing me fully.
Duo loves my ass.
He tells me often, especially as he places kisses there. I feel his tongue
teasing around before gently brushing flat over my entrance. Every fiber
of my being screams in ecstasy.
I want more. His tongue wiggles inside as my hand grips firmly on my cock,
stroking myself hard.
Yes, everything about me is beautiful; Duo does everything he can to show
me just how precious I am to him. He loves me so much.
"I love you Duo."
The words spill helplessly from my mouth. My mind is barely coherent now
and I feel myself getting close to release.
Duo must realize this too as he quickly removes his tongue from my ass
and uses his hands to stop mine.
"Wait... " he whispers to me.
I gaze up at him, knowing that this is the moment. He is looking down
at me, his hair falling around our faces. Great Gods, he is so beautiful.
A cold wetness closes over my raging hardness as I notice Duo's hands
are behind him. He is rubbing lubricant on me.
My confusion must show since he smiles reassuringly at me.
Duo moves forward a little, coming closer to my face. My cock feels something
pressing against its tip. He purrs as he slowly impales himself on my
cock. I can feel every inch moving over me, "You are so mine!"
he hisses as I am taken completely into his body.
I can feel the shaking in my body swiftly building into a roar. I had
no idea that he would claim me like this. Everything closes around us
as I throw my head back in a silent scream.
Duo pulls up slightly and I shake my head furiously, I want to stay in.
My cock thrusts up just as he slides back down, riding me.
Riding me hard.
He leans forward, brushing his lips to mine. "I can feel it Heero.
Do it, do it with me."
I nod, I am aware of the approaching tides. Waves of crashing ecstasy
hovering over us, we are balancing on the edge of eternity.
"Now!" he screams in my awaiting mouth. His body is slamming
onto mine as I let go. "Now... "
We both fall over the edge, screaming out each other's names. I feel my
soul burst forward, meeting Duo's in a melding of spiritual union.
The waves descend upon us, through us, sending Duo and I spiraling together.
We feel everything about each other and nothing beyond. All time stands
still as we float, a single joined soul in the loving hands of God.
My breath forces me back into my body, I wasn't even sure when I left.
Duo has collapsed on me, his release on my stomach and chest. We are quite
messy; we don't care.
His hand gently caresses my arm. "You okay?" he asks, almost
I wrap my arms around him, pulling him tight to my body. "Thank you,
He smiles against my neck. We both know that I am thanking him for everything.
As long as we are at each other's side, facing life hand in hand and treating
each other with respect, there is nothing that we cannot conquer.
Even the biting silence.
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