It was Duo's voice he heard first. The blast field had whited out his
sensors, and he was effectively flying blind, trusting Zero's Gundanium
shell to keep anything too drastic from happening to him. Duo's voice
reached his ears, though, exclaiming in delight, and as the others chimed
in Heero realised with a peculiar sort of clarity that Duo was right.
He really was alive, and the war was over.
"Mission... complete." He tried the words out. They meant much more than
simple success. They meant that there was peace, that Heero was no longer
a soldier by necessity. They meant that his mind and body no longer belonged
to scientists in labs, meant that those old men had no power over him.
Heero was free. Free, and all he wanted to do was find Duo and kiss him
Quatre's halting voice came over the com. "Head for MO-2, everyone." Heero
realised that although Sandrock appeared intact, Quatre must have been
injured while on Libra. He hoped it wasn't too serious; the medical facilities
on the satellite must be strained to bursting right now, but there was
really nowhere else to go.
"Hey, Heero, you all right in there?" Duo's voice was a little... worried.
Heero decided he rather liked that Duo would worry about him. He looked
around at his instruments, realising just how much damage Zero had taken
on that abortive re-entry, and how bad it must look from the outside.
He would be limping in rather than breezing back in glory, not that he
"I'm intact. Zero is functioning below capacity. You go on ahead if you
want," Heero offered. "I'll meet you there."
There was a brief crackle, then... "Nah, I'll stick with you, Heero. After
all, you're gonna need someone to fend off... hysterical people, and they
need to get Quatre to the infirmary."
"What happened to him?" MO-2 was coming up steadily before them, but not
at any speed that was close to Wing's maximum, and certainly nothing like
Deathscythe Hell's capability. Heero noticed that Duo had not only powered
down the thermal scythe but disassembled it and strapped it across the
back of the suit.
"That damn Catalonia bitch stabbed him with a fencing foil while he was
on Libra." Duo must have heard Heero's inhalation of shock, because he
added quickly, "No major damage, Trowa said, but he needs medical attention."
"Hn. Sally Po is there. She is a doctor." OZ must have doctors on the
satellite too, and medical technicians. Heero remembered being at the
school in Sanc, and Dorothy. He had always found her... troublesome. He
hoped she was being dealt with now. She had been a good fencer, then,
if too temperamental for a soldier.
"Yeah." Duo's voice dropped, as though someone could overhear them on
this private frequency. "You really OK, Heero?"
"I'm fine. What about you, are you hurt?" The idea made his insides clench
up painfully. If Duo was injured, and hiding it from him...
"No, no, I'm fine!" Duo said quickly. "I mean, I got a bit of a shock
when I found some unexpected guests on Libra... G and the rest. Don't
know where they are now, and I'm not sure I care."
And then they were there, and Heero had to turn all his attention to checking
Zero's systems, making the best landing in the satellite's bay that he
could, and powering down. If he was honest with himself, he was a little
nervous about seeing Duo again. They had had so little time together in
these past few weeks, and between suit repairs and exhaustion had managed
nothing more than a few more stolen kisses. The prospect of having the
luxury of time, enough time to hold Duo properly, of a kiss that could
last more than a half second of hidden contact... Heero wondered if they
should celebrate the peace somehow, if there would be parties, or whether
the survivors would be too sickened by what they had lost.
He had to leave the shelter of Wing's cockpit sometime preferably before
Relena managed to find him again. She would probably rail at him for risking
his life and continuing to fight, and... she wasn't Duo. All of a sudden,
Heero wanted to be with Duo very badly. He unbuckled his harness and keyed
the sequence that would open the hatch. There was no hiss of moving air,
so he supposed that the satellite hadn't suffered damage. Climbing out
of the lowered cockpit, Heero was a little startled by the sheer chaos
in the mobile suit bay. People and machinery were drifting all over the
place, and as soon as he appeared in the hatchway heads turned his way.
Heero felt himself blushing furiously as silence fell across the huge
His gaze fell on Wu Fei, standing over to one side of the crowd and apparently
beset by people. Soldiers and technicians, trying to shake his hand. He
looked like he was about to explode, but Sally Po was pushing her way
through the crowd towards him, so Heero thought he was probably OK. He
kicked off from the hatchway, letting the low artificial gravity of the
satellite pull him slowly towards the deck plates. He never made it there;
a black-suited blur hit him at a surprising velocity, arms tangling around
him as he was knocked sideways in a spin.
Heero blinked startled eyes just in time to see Duo's face moving towards
his. This kiss picked up where they had previously left off, and added
a whole lot of emotional impact. Duo's mouth met his with force, and after
a nanosecond's startlement Heero relaxed into the contact, parting his
lips and seeking Duo's tongue with his own as hands pushed their way into
his hair and a strong body pressed against his own. He hadn't thought
that any kiss could possibly be better than those first few tentative
moments all those weeks ago, but this felt wonderfully good, coaxing reactions
from parts of him utterly unrelated to his mouth. A moan welled up in
the back of Heero's throat as the tip of Duo's braid smacked softly into
his back, and he felt the other boy purr against him, pressing closer.
They were rather rudely jolted out of their private little world by the
echoing sound of applause. Heero pulled back from the kiss, startled to
see that the pair of them were the focus of a small crowd of people, all
of whom seemed to be clapping and cheering and whistling. He flushed violently,
and felt the heat on his skin as Duo's face flamed too. Heero was seriously
tempted to scramble back into his Gundam and make a break for it, but
Duo had a death-grip on his hand and there was no way Heero was going
to let go. In that moment, though, he decided that as soon as physically
possible, he they? were going to be getting the hell out of here.
"Aw, hell," Duo muttered beside him, and Heero turned to see a furious
blush decorating that fair skin. The other boy raised his voice. "All
right, all right, show's over, everyone! C'mon, Heero." And he set off
in the opposite direction, tugging on Heero's hand as the crowd fell back
"Nice entrance, Duo, Heero." Sally Po looked amused and rather... satisfied,
while Wu Fei seemed a little strained around the edges. He looked as though
his eyes would be bulging if he weren't so conscious of being in public.
"Hn. How is Quatre?" Heero asked before Duo could say anything. He had
scanned the area thoroughly, and though the other three Gundams were kneeling
over by the far wall, there was no sign of either of the other pilots.
Heero took that to mean that Trowa was with Quatre, which he thought was
probably a good thing.
"He'll be in the infirmary for a few days, but he should make a full recovery."
Sally glanced from one to the other of them, then glanced off to the left.
Following her gaze, Heero could see Relena standing with Noin, staring
at him sorrowfully. Puppy dog eyes, Heero thought, wincing internally,
but he didn't let go of Duo's hand. If Relena had chosen to interpret
his behaviour in a certain way... he was not to blame for that.
"Happy Christmas," Sally whispered theatrically, tossing a small object
towards them. Heero flinched automatically, hand going for his gun, then
was furious with himself for the reaction as Duo's free hand shot out
to snatch the little thing from the air.
Heero blinked then, his mind catching up with what Sally had said. "Christmas?"
She grinned widely, glancing between him and Duo again as she backed off,
moving away towards the place where Relena still stood forlornly.
"Yeah, it's Christmas Eve," Duo said as if he was only just realising
that himself. "I'd forgotten, after everything that's happened." He looked
over to Heero with a little smile. "Want to find somewhere more private?
We kinda have some stuff to talk about..." Heero didn't know about talking,
but private certainly sounded good right now.
"OK." He let Duo tug him off again, towards the inner parts of the satellite.
The object Sally had thrown at them turned out to be a locator key, and
it led them to a door half way down a narrow corridor deep within the
base. Duo passed it over the reader, and as the door hissed open to reveal
a tiny, sparsely furnished cabin he caught hold of the collar of Heero's
flight suit and dragged him inside.
"Heh, this place must be fuller than Peacemillion ever was," Duo muttered,
looking around. "Remind me to thank Sally..." His posture, the way his
hands rested on his hips, drew Heero's attention to the way that blue-banded
black flight suit clung to the planes and curves of his body. Duo was
beyond beautiful, but the look in his eyes as he turned to Heero made
him step back in surprise. //Shinigami...//
"And you." Duo glared at him. "Do you have any idea how
worried I was when you went across to Libra? Not to mention that bit where
you nearly got your ass fried in re-entry!"
Heero blinked at him, feeling a peculiar mixture of guilt and joy. Duo
being worried meant that Duo cared about him. Kisses were one thing, but
this anger was another. "You know I had to."
Duo deflated a little, his shoulders drooping. "Yeah, I know. Doesn't
help much, though, you still coulda been killed."
Heero shrugged. As far as he was concerned, it was simply a risk they
all took. "Do... I get a reward, for saving the world?" He reached out
uncertainly, taking the end of Duo's braid between his fingers. Slowly,
he pulled the stretchy band away from the hair, beginning to unravel the
soft strands. Duo looked up at him with startled eyes, eyes that suddenly
seemed much closer as he flung his arms around Heero, clinging to him
like vine in the wind.
"Duo." Heero slowly closed his arms about the other boy, laying his head
down on Duo's shoulder. The war was over. He wasn't a soldier any more;
little voices in the back of his head kept clamouring at him, shrieking
about what was he going to do now? Heero didn't know, but if he had his
way he would be doing it with Duo, and he thought Duo might feel the same
They stood there together for a very long time. Duo didn't seem any more
inclined to let go than Heero was. Holding Duo against him like this felt
right, as though Duo's arms was the place he belonged. Heero's
time sense blurred a little; he pushed his face in towards Duo's neck,
feeling the rough surface texture of the flight suit and scenting sweat,
and musk, and warmth. Duo.
"Do you still want to do wicked things to me?" Heero asked curiously,
a little nervously; his voice came out muffled in Duo's collar. He felt
wisps of the other boy's hair tickling his nose.
"Hell yeah," Duo murmured into his shoulder; Heero felt one of Duo's hands
leave his back, and a second later there was the sensation of warm fingers
slipping beneath his own collar, stroking softly along the back of his
neck. It felt nice. Gentle, sort of tingly. Duo's fingers trailed slowly
through the hair at his nape, and Heero shivered, lifting his head and
blindly seeking Duo's mouth.
A year ago, Heero would never have pictured himself in such a position.
He had thought that he would not live to see the end of the war, and the
idea of actually caring about somebody caring about another person enough
to touch them this way had never occurred to him. He had felt contemptuous
of other teenagers who seemed to spend all their time dating, and kissing,
and obsessing about relationships. What value had that had, in comparison
to his war? But this maybe he understood, now. Duo's hands on his body
felt breathtaking, even through layers of clothing and pressure suits,
and his kisses... Heero felt so young, clumsy and inexperienced next to
him, although they were the same age.
Duo's lips moved; Heero could feel the other boy smiling against his mouth,
and then he was being guided gently backwards until the backs of his knees
bumped the edge of the neatly-made bunk. He felt a sense of wonder, that
Duo could co-ordinate all of this without leaving off what he was doing;
he remembered calling the boy an idiot, thinking of him as stupid and
foolish when they had first known each other. He shook his head, breaking
the kiss a little.
Duo drew back a few centimetres, frowning. "What, Heero?" His voice was
soft, not the brash joking they had all become used to, or the harsh battle-sound
of Shinigami. Heero tried to smile at him.
"Happy Christmas, Duo." The words sounded strange on his tongue; it was
not a holiday Odin had celebrated, and there had been no room for such
things in Dr J's ordered world.
Duo smiled brilliantly, eyes creasing up, and leaned in to kiss him again,
licking at Heero's lips a little. "Do I get to unwrap my present now?"
Heero didn't understand at first, and frowned, but then Duo's fingers
reached for the fastenings of his suit, and he flushed as the words suddenly
made sense. "If... you want to..." he trailed off uncertainly.
Duo's eyes shone like binary stars. "I do want to," he said softly, as
his fingers began to work at the seals and zippers. "I want to touch you,
Heero, and I want you to touch me."
Heero swallowed, trying to speak through the breath that caught in his
throat. "I I want to do that, I..." Any other words he might have said
were lost as Duo kissed him again, hungrily, sliding his tongue into Heero's
mouth as his quick hands pushed the top half of the flight suit down to
Heero's waist, then trailed up again over the black, stretchy material
of his undergarment. Heero felt his eyelids flutter shut and his knees
tremble; the thin fabric was much less of a barrier to Duo's touch, and
it felt unbelievably good. When Duo's hands dragged over the muscles of
his chest, fingertips stroking across his nipples, Heero's knees really
did give out and he toppled backwards onto the bed, dragging Duo down
Heero gasped for breath, fumbling for the fastenings at Duo's throat as
the other boy landed hard against his chest. "Oof!" Duo pushed himself
up a little, clambering onto the bed and taking some of his weight off
Heero. It allowed Heero to breathe more easily, but he still felt a little
bereft, and the damn seals seemed to be evading his fingers as though
taunting him. He growled a little in frustration, frowning up at them,
and was a little startled to find Duo's hands suddenly aiding his own.
He wondered how Duo's hands could be so steady.
"Heero God, Heero..." Duo was mumbling into his neck, his body stretched
out alongside Heero's, pressing against him in a very distracting way.
Heero could feel the damp heat of his breath against his skin; it made
him shiver. He wanted to touch Duo, now; he yanked impatiently on the
zipper, tugging the top part of the suit down. Duo helped, pulling his
arms out and wriggling to get the clinging stuff down his legs. Heero
sat up, pushing his own suit down over his hips, toeing the boot parts
off and kicking them off his legs. When he looked up, Duo's eyes were
fixed on his body.
Heero blushed, and Duo raised one hesitant hand, brushing over his waist
and down one hip in a way that felt very nice. Heero made a noise
in his throat and shifted closer.
"Damn, Heero, I knew you looked good in spandex but..." Duo murmured,
blinking at him as his fingertips roamed over Heero's skintight undergarments.
The stretchy black stuff looked good on Duo too, Heero thought, but the
formfitting material just made him more fixated on the skin that was underneath.
He forgot all about that, though, when Duo pulled his braid over his shoulder
and finished unravelling it, shaking his head back. Long, loose, cinnamon
hair drifted around his black-clad body, falling in soft waves over his
shoulders and back. Heero stopped breathing.
Duo reached for him, smiling a little uncertainly, and Heero moved to
kiss him again without any hesitation. Their mouths became bolder, tongues
twisting and stroking against each other, teeth nipping at lips, and Heero
lost track of time again as he was gently pushed down onto his back. When
they parted, he simply stared up at Duo's wide-eyed face, the other boy's
hair falling like a curtain around them. Shutting out the rest of the
world, Heero thought.
"Duo," he whispered, lifting his hands and twisting that silky hair between
his fingers, drawing the other's face back down for another melting kiss.
It was every bit as soft as he had imagined...
Duo was pressed tightly against him from chest to knees, and it felt beyond
good. Heero could feel himself getting hard; he shifted a little, uncertainly,
and felt a similar bulge in Duo's pants, rubbing a little against his
hip. Duo gasped into his mouth at the motion, and deepened the kiss, sucking
hard on Heero's tongue. Heero moaned softly, breathed through his nose
and tried to stay rational. Duo pulled back, laughing breathlessly against
his lips, but Heero knew that he wasn't mocking him. Duo sounded so...
happy; it gave Heero a strange, warm feeling inside to know that
he was the cause of that joyful sound. It only added to the heat pooling
in his stomach and groin. He stroked his fingers softly down Duo's back,
searching for the hem of the stretchy shirt, and was rewarded with a gasp
and a tiny shiver.
"God, Heero," Duo murmured in his ear. "Do you know what you're doing?
What we're doing?"
Heero froze uncertainly. "I... I've never..."
Duo moved, pushing his hips against Heero's with a little groan. "Me either...
I know the theory, but... aah... I never cared about anyone enough
to want to do... this."
There didn't seem to be anything Heero could say to that, so he kissed
him again. Duo responded enthusiastically, his fingers ghosting along
the hem of Heero's shirt, then squirming underneath. The touch of Duo's
hands on the skin of his stomach made Heero gasp and arch up a little,
and the motion brought their now fully hard cocks into contact.
Even through two layers of clothing, it was electrifying. Duo hissed and
thrust against him, biting down on his lip, and Heero abruptly decided
that he was tired of going slow. He had them both divested of their upper
garments before Duo could do much more than blink down at him in surprise.
Duo's body was pale, the skin of his chest and upper arms two or three
shades lighter than his face and hands. Heero's own hands, when he splayed
them out against Duo's ribs, were slightly darker and made a contrast.
He was a little surprised when Duo shifted onto his side again, but the
sensation of light hands running over the muscles of his chest and abdomen
made him shudder. Duo's fingers found his nipples again, and suddenly
Heero was simply too far away and if he didn't kiss Duo again right now
he thought he might die. Duo's hands came up to hold his head as he pulled
their bodies together again.
They lay there, legs tangled together, hands caressing slowly, just kissing
each other. Heero thought the feel of Duo's skin against his own might
be even more addictive than the kisses. He wondered whether this was how
it felt to everyone, or if it was just Duo. Was this how love was supposed
to feel? As if it simply wasn't possible to get enough of the other person,
their smiles, their kisses, their touch?
God, Duo's touch. His hands were stroking against Heero's back, just gentle
circles as their mouths moved together, but it felt better than anything
he had yet experienced. His own hands were exploring Duo's upper chest
and shoulders, finding the sharp curves and planes of muscle and delicate
bones, drawing gasps and little whimpers when they found sensitive spots.
Heero felt like he would want to just lie here doing this forever, could
just let go of the world and everything in it and stay in this little
cabin, on this narrow bunk, with Duo.
Duo shifted, pulling Heero over to lie flush against him, and their erections
brushed together again. Heero broke the kiss with a gasp, breathing heavily.
Duo had his eyes shut and was humming happily, a smile on his face and
his hair falling around him. Hesitantly, Heero slid one hand down over
the boy's waist to stroke across his hip, then down the back of his thigh.
Duo all but purred, arching and rubbing himself very deliberately against
Heero. One of his hands drifted down to clutch at Heero's ass, pulling
him into the contact. Then his eyes opened, indigo like smoke in an evening
sky, and his fingers slipped inside the waistband of Heero's pants, touching
Heero thought he just might die. It was akin to the sensation of pushing
that trigger in Siberia, a strange rushing dislocation from his body,
but now there was a tugging sensation in his loins as tiny little darts
of pleasure sped through him. He thought he groaned. Duo's fingers curled
about his erection, rubbing and sliding gently, stroking him as though
he were something precious. He was looking into Heero's eyes, gazing into
his soul, and now his thumb was rubbing softly around the tip, it felt
He had to touch too. He had to show Duo just how good this felt. Hesitantly
Heero reached for the waistband of Duo's pants, pulling the elastic material
down just enough to get his own hands in. Duo's eyes pulled at his, refused
to let him go, but he could still touch. Still feel.
Duo was hot in his hand, hard and heavy and hot, and he arched against
Heero with a guttural noise of pleasure, his own fingers clutching almost
painfully and wringing a similar sound from Heero. Heero had never imagined
that someone else could feel so good in his fingers. Although he had touched
himself before, explored his own body in secret, it had always been very
much a guilty pleasure. He could not imagine Dr J approving of his weapon
expending valuable energy on something so trivial, and so the sheer pleasure
of having Duo's cock in his hand startled him a little.
Hesitantly, Heero began to move his hand, trying to imitate the movements
Duo's fingers were making upon his own body. Curling the fingers, squeezing
a little, stroking up and down, rubbing just there... He could
feel liquid seeping from the head, and he spread it around with his thumb,
feeling his fingers becoming slicker. Duo gasped and writhed against him,
the motions of his hands increasing, his eyes still boring into Heero's.
Heero arched involuntarily, pressing against him and feeling the edge
approaching too fast to be held off. He clutched at Duo almost desperately,
thrusting his hips into the movements of the other boy's hand, feeling
Duo's own body begin to move against him, the heat of him growing and
Duo tightened his fingers with a groan, stroking harder and reaching up
to pull Heero's head down for a kiss. His tongue thrust between Heero's
teeth, twining with his own and Duo's hips jerked violently, his cock
throbbing and pulsing in Heero's hand as something slick suddenly filled
the space between them and Heero lost himself finally, the world exploding
into darkness and taking him with it.
"Wow." It was the fifth time Duo had said that in as many minutes, but
Heero didn't care. He could feel himself smiling like a fool, and he didn't
care. The aftershocks had subsided a little now, and Duo was propped up
one elbow, staring down at him with that serious-affectionate-happy expression
on his face. Hero liked that expression. He liked it even better because
it was directed at him. Maybe even because of him. Something he had done
had made Duo this happy. That was a good feeling, one he wanted to experience
again. Along with everything they had just done.
"I never realised it would feel so good," Duo was saying in a low voice
that made warm shivers go through Heero. "I might have kissed you sooner
if I'd known." He twirled a lock of his hair absently around one finger,
head on one side.
Heero blinked. "Did you want to?"
"Yeah, for ages." Duo grinned at him. "Why do you think I stuck around
you so much, huh? Like glue."
Heero smiled. Somewhere in the afterglow they had lost the remainders
of their clothing, some of it used to clean them of sweat and fluids,
and now their legs were curled together on top of the blanket. Skin to
skin from neck to toes, it felt intimate. Good.
"I only realised recently what it was I wanted. I'm... not good at..."
"You're good enough for me, Heero." Duo leaned down and kissed him again,
slow and almost lazy. Heero could feel a hum of pleasure vibrating through
his chest. This was good, comfortable; he felt like he belonged here.
With Duo. It felt like the logical extension of those hugs, of the thoughts
Heero had been having. He knew there was more, though, and having tasted
this much he felt almost greedy for the rest.
Duo flopped down onto his back beside him, staring up at the ceiling.
"This is weird, huh?"
Heero frowned. "...What do you mean?"
Duo's fingers found his hand, but he didn't turn to face him, instead
lifting a lock of his hair and inspecting it. "You. Me. This. I mean,
I wanted, but I never expected this to actually happen." Heero felt his
hand being squeezed gently, fingers interlacing with his own as Duo frowned
at his hair. "Hell, this stuff is going to be a nightmare to brush out
"I could do that." The words popped out before Heero really had a chance
to think about them. "I mean, I'd like to. If you want."
Duo's fingers caressed his own. "That'd be nice, Heero." Heero liked the
way Duo said his name.
There was a comfortable silence for while, and Heero thought about things.
"What should we do now?" he asked after a while, a little uncertainly.
"We're only fifteen..."
"Maybe sixteen it's nearly the end of the year." Duo frowned up at the
ceiling. "I was thinking, we could go back to L2 with Hilde for a while
there's always work in a scrapyard. Or the Sweepers could use us, there'll
be a lot of profit to be made from clean-up. Depends what you want to
do really, Heero."
The implications of that would have been staggering, if Heero hadn't been
used to shocks. "...You want to stay with me?"
"I want us to stay together," Duo corrected, though Heero wasn't sure
he understood the difference. "I like you, Heero," the fingers in his
tightened, "maybe more."
"I like you too." It was the plain truth, and both of them knew that they
weren't referring to friendship or camaraderie. "That wasn't what I meant.
What should we do now?" He punctuated the question with a brush
of fingers down Duo's side.
"Oh...? Oh." Duo levered himself up onto his elbow again, leaning over
Heero until there was very little space between their mouths. "What would
you like to do, Heero?"
That name again, in a voice like silk. Heero shivered. "Everything," he
murmured, and the words came out hoarse and almost pleading. His fingers
found their way to Duo's skin without any direction on his part, drifting
over the hard muscles of his abdomen. Duo shuddered beneath his touch,
and several locks of his hair slithered over his shoulder, falling slowly
down to tickle against Heero's skin.
"Are you sure, Heero?" Duo's eyes were wide pools of twilight blue. "We
don't have to you said yourself we're only fifteen."
"Maybe sixteen. And anyway..." Heero tried to put it into words. "Neither
of us is exactly a normal fifteen-year-old. We've seen enough done enough
to be considered adult. And if we're going to if I'm going to be with
you, then I want to be with you. I want everything, Duo."
Duo blinked down at him, looking a little awed and a lot nervous, now.
One hand skimmed down Heero's side, hovering suggestively over his hip.
Heero arched up into the contact, feeling arousal stir within him. Abruptly,
though, Duo was gone, propelling himself energetically off the bed. Heero
couldn't stop himself from reaching out, about to plead with his lover
to return, but Duo crouched by the side of the bed, pulling open the little
cupboard there and rooting through its contents.
"What are you...?"
Duo pulled open a drawer, poking through it urgently. "Looking for...
ah." He snatched something up, shoving the cabinet back into some semblance
of order, and sat back down on the bed beside Heero. Heero watched curiously
as he set a bottle of hand cream down by the head of the bed.
"What's that for?"
"You." Duo looked down at him with a new expression on his face, serious
but at the same time tender and a little aroused. "If you want this, we're
doing it properly."
It was in Heero to question what Duo meant then, but the other boy forestalled
him by leaning down, bringing their bodies together again and taking Heero's
lips with his own, and suddenly words didn't matter nearly as much.
Heero had thought for while that he himself was somehow flawed, that there
was a fault in him that went beyond conditioning, preventing him from
being able to relate to others on a personal level. Now, here in this
place with Duo caressing his skin, touching him almost with worship, he
knew categorically that he had been mistaken. His personality, his soul,
might be newly formed and impressionable, but it was his, and whole. He
had never felt that he fit anywhere as much as he did here with Duo.
He thought that Duo might feel the same way; he was murmuring tiny words
into Heero's skin, his hands, endearments and exhortations, words that
meant Duo loved him. Heero knew it as surely as he knew he felt the same.
He didn't need to understand the emotion to know that he felt it.
Duo's mouth was hot against his, his tongue tracing Heero's lower lip,
the roof of his mouth. Heero slid his hands down Duo's back, clutching
at his ass and pulling their hips into closer contact. It felt familiar,
wonderful, as though he could die of it, and it was only beginning. He
slid his legs a little apart in invitation, pulling Duo between them,
their renewed erections sliding and rubbing against each other. The friction
was almost enough to drive Heero out of his mind, and by the way Duo groaned
into his mouth, one hand flailing out for the hand cream, it must feel
just as intense to him.
Still, Duo had to pause after he had tipped the stuff onto his fingers.
"Heero, are you really sure you wanna do this?"
"Yes. Hai. Duo..." Heero reached up, tangling one hand in Duo's hair and
pulling his face down for a slow, lingering kiss that left them both short
of breath and aching. "I want you. I want this."
He had thought that he was prepared for this, but the feeling of Duo's
slick fingers sliding across that sensitive ring of muscle surprised him
enough that he gasped, and then as the sensation became stronger Heero
could not help but moan at the sheer, strange pleasure of it. Duo's fingers,
gentle and uncertain, caressed him there in that hidden place, pulling
shivers and gasps from him. Heero's body was used to overloads of sensation,
used to pressure, pain, accelerated healing, but not to this. Not to this
creeping, caressing pleasure that stole through him, sent tiny sparks
of fire through his system. He groaned, thrusting up, reaching desperately
for Duo, he needed...
Duo's other hand settled on his aching groin, rubbing slowly in what might
elsewhere have been a soothing motion, and the exploring fingers became
bolder. Heero repressed a tiny sob as the tip of Duo's index finger entered
him slowly, unable to quite fathom where all this emotion was coming from.
He looked up into the face above him; Duo was biting his bottom lip, looking
very unsure of himself, and Heero remembered that this was his first time
Heero couldn't respond with more than a soft gasp; the finger inside him
was moving slowly, flexing and exploring. It felt strange, alien... good.
Unbelievably good; pleasure rushed through him like a dam bursting as
the invading digit brushed across something there...
"Duo. More," Heero found himself all but begging, clutching at Duo's forearm.
The finger withdrew a little, leaving behind a strangely uncomfortable
feeling of emptiness, and then the sensation returned as Duo pushed two
fingers inside him. Even with the lubrication of the hand cream, this
ached a little, but it was just an ache, not actual pain. Heero shifted
a little, trying to adjust himself, and felt that explosive brush across
his prostate again as Duo began to work the fingers in him, stretching.
He sank back onto the bed, gasping, and just let Duo do what he would.
Three fingers, more lubricant, and it really was stretching now, tight,
and he tried to relax his muscles because it felt so good and he wanted
more, wanted it all. Somehow Heero found the bottle of hand cream in his
hands, found himself squeezing the stuff into his fingers and taking Duo's
cock into his hands again, the slippery stuff making the movements of
his hands slick and easy, and Heero felt more than heard Duo's groan.
Then there was a moment of wrenching stillness, Heero empty again as Duo's
fingers were removed, and Duo was looking down at him, asking him again
despite the expression on his face which clearly told Heero that Duo wanted
this as much or more than he did.
"Heero, are you sure...?"
Heero gasped in reply, jerking his hips up towards Duo urgently, he wanted
this, he needed it. "Everything, Duo...!"
Duo rose over him, Heero half-slitting his eyes so that the other boy
wasn't much more than a pale shadow draped in chestnut hair, warmth against
him. He felt it then, the slickness of Duo's erection nudging at his entrance,
and for just a moment he had to fight not to freeze. The breath went out
of him in a hiss as Duo pressed into him, agonisingly slowly, his muscles
burning and twinging, protesting the intrusion. Heero forced himself to
relax, ignore the ache and let Duo further inside him.
"Heero God," Duo panted, head bowed and hair flowing over them both
like a river. "Don't let me hurt you...!"
"You won't," Heero croaked, lifting his hips and trying to coax Duo further
before he was reduced to begging. Already the ache had begun to be replaced
with an unbelievable sense of fullness, completion. This felt right...
he wanted it all...
With a dry sound of pleasure, Duo pushed in all at once, his balls pressing
against Heero's ass and the whole thick length of him tight inside Heero's
body. Heero thought he might just die of this, almost thought he wanted
to. His legs were wound tightly around Duo's hips, the other boy's face
buried in his neck; he could feel Duo's harsh breath on his skin and it
matched his own. "I'm ready, Duo." Heero rocked his pelvis to prove it,
and Duo's fingers tightened almost painfully on his hips; Heero thought
he might have bruises later.
"God, Heero I can't last long, I you..." He began moving slowly, pulling
back a few centimetres then pushing back in.
//Doesn't matter,// Heero thought; he just wanted needed Duo to move.
He lifted his hands, fisting them in Duo's hair and pulling his face down
close enough to kiss. Duo's eyes were wide, pupils dark and dilated with
arousal, his teeth buried in his lower lip, and Heero kissed his mouth,
licking frantically at his lips, then his nose, his cheek, every patch
of skin he could reach. It felt like he could never get enough of Duo,
like he could never want to.
The sensation of Duo's hard penis inside him had been alien at first,
but as the other pilot began to move, thrusting slowly, it felt beyond
good. The lubrication added enough slickness to the movement that the
friction between them was caressing rather than painful; Heero felt Duo
moving over, around, inside him, stroking his body inside and out, the
motion of his thrusts brushing against that spot inside him, sending waves
of pleasure coursing over, though him.
Duo was gasping into his neck now, mumbling broken snatches of words and
phrases, his body pushing against Heero's with every thrust. His erection
was rubbing against the hard planes of Duo's stomach, but he wanted more;
he moved his own hand down to stroke himself but Duo's hand was there
first, squeezing him as his cock thrust hard just there, and that
was it, he was over the edge and maybe screaming, maybe convulsing as
his vision whited out and his muscles contracted and he came harder than
he ever had in his life. Feeling Duo's thrusting accelerating and becoming
ragged as wet heat exploded inside Heero's body and he arched with a trembling
cry and collapsed atop him.
Maybe. Heero didn't really think much of anything for a quite a while
after that, but somewhere, in between the lazy movements and the whispered
words of affection afterglow he realised it. This was it. He wasn't
one any more, but a part of Duo, just as Duo was part of him. They belonged
to each other now, and maybe it might not last so long, maybe they might
grow up and apart with the years, but this was love. It really was. And
it was more than either of them had ever had.
Heero pulled Duo's head down to lie against his shoulder, uncaring of
the sweat and semen slowly drying on their bodies. It was his life now,
his choice to make, and he wasn't going to let this go.
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